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And I really do mean
ALOT
WishList 2005
1. Backpacking
2. Brazillian Waxing
3. Full Face Waxing
4. Car Licence
5. Crazy Shopping Spree
6. EarringSSssss
7. Bike Licence
8. Taste Weed
9. New Handphone
10. Makeover
11. Lose 10kg
12. New Pair of Jeans
13. SunGlasses
14. A Pair Of Shoes
15. Siberian Husky Pup
16. Ball Python
not wat i was expecting
but juz as cute^^
17. Clubbing In Malaysia
18. Slack At A Beach Resort
19. Get A Good Watch For My Mummie
20. Get A Mont Blanc Pen For Daddie
21. PlayStation 2
22. Another Pair Of Jeans
23. Earphones
*smiles*
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Friends
.:Daryl:.
.:DreamBoi:.
.:LostBody:.
.:Ivan:.
.:Jacy:.
.:Nad:.
.:Princess:.
.:Ray:.
.:Red:.
.:Sheepie:.
.:Stacy:.
.:Veronica:.
.:Vik:.
Ideal Guy/Dream Guy
1. Tall [Prolly 1.76m]
2. Good Family Background
3. Sexy body
4. Chinese
5. Drives A Nice Car
6. Rides A Nice Bike
7. Able To Afford Me
8. Owns A Nice Tattoo
9. Smart/Street Wise
10. English Educated
11. Staying Near My Area
12. Parents Agreement [Vic Versa]
13. Kind Hearted
14. Romantic
15. Average Looking
16. Good Career
17. Gives In To Me
18. On My Frequency Of Thinking
19. Able To Click Well
20. Great In Bed
Saturday, April 23, 2005
hmm... tonight was good... but not as fun... prolly coz we were all really tired... hehe anyways.. i think i'm gonna kock out soon.. so yea.. a picture tells a thousand words.
~Chingay Lights~
Hopefully i Spelled it correctly haha
Too Tired to Even Smile
Here's Where We're At
Vik
Mif
French Fry Vamp
Hmm.. Bad Lighting..
I think We Need The Candle
Our Candle or
Rather Oil Lamp
Better~ Much Better
~Hmm... Kinky~
Look At That Hantu Behind Me
Way too Dark...
All We Needed Was
An Extra Lighter
With The Oil Lamp
~Chingay Lights~
Hopefully i Spelled it correctly haha
Too Tired to Even Smile
Here's Where We're At
Vik
Mif
French Fry Vamp
Hmm.. Bad Lighting..
I think We Need The Candle
Our Candle or
Rather Oil Lamp
Better~ Much Better
~Hmm... Kinky~
Look At That Hantu Behind Me
Way too Dark...
All We Needed Was
An Extra Lighter
With The Oil Lamp
Friday, April 22, 2005
ORD le!!!! Finally i'm doen wif my attachment. WAAHAHAHHA.. but seriously i'm gonna miss the pple here.. they r all crazy... hahah of co there is alway smy crazy boss to.. wel.. at least for the last week of my attachment he was relaticely nice.. and the best thing he did for me so far was my evaluation form.. hahaa..
Quote
" Rachel is an active and positive student who is able to apply her knowledge and skills for all assigned tasks. Her ability to learn fast has allowed her to work confidently with minimum supervision. She is always ready and willing to take on new challenges and produce excellent quality of work in the shortest time poissble. She gets along well among the learn with her pleasent personality and good communication skill."
I'm so proud of myself i got 2 5-excellents and 3 4-goods as my grades.. with an overall grade of 4-good.
Thou i got fucked today by daddie for my hp bill which is iabout 150 or sumthing i can't remember.. he told me that i have to pay for it if it goes above 40. Other then that i still damn happy...
The gang and myself r celebrating our "ORD" at the zoo again... haha dwon at bongo bongo.. hehe... i think its gonna be great... attachment has really sucked ever bit of life out from me.. i look so tired so drained over the last 3 mths. finally i can get my rest and i can start on my trainning. hehethou i'm runnign a little low on cash already... but its fine.. i can always work to earn back what i have lost. no biggie.
So many things i plan to do... so little time.. so little money.. hehe i guess u can't have the best of everything.
Quote
" Rachel is an active and positive student who is able to apply her knowledge and skills for all assigned tasks. Her ability to learn fast has allowed her to work confidently with minimum supervision. She is always ready and willing to take on new challenges and produce excellent quality of work in the shortest time poissble. She gets along well among the learn with her pleasent personality and good communication skill."
I'm so proud of myself i got 2 5-excellents and 3 4-goods as my grades.. with an overall grade of 4-good.
Thou i got fucked today by daddie for my hp bill which is iabout 150 or sumthing i can't remember.. he told me that i have to pay for it if it goes above 40. Other then that i still damn happy...
The gang and myself r celebrating our "ORD" at the zoo again... haha dwon at bongo bongo.. hehe... i think its gonna be great... attachment has really sucked ever bit of life out from me.. i look so tired so drained over the last 3 mths. finally i can get my rest and i can start on my trainning. hehethou i'm runnign a little low on cash already... but its fine.. i can always work to earn back what i have lost. no biggie.
So many things i plan to do... so little time.. so little money.. hehe i guess u can't have the best of everything.
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
its been a long time since i blogged... decided to stop forawhile... hmm.. well.. depression juz set itself in on me again...
I feel weird now... sum how more lonely, and "sad-der". i miss that bastard so much suddenly, i miss having a relationship... a relationship that i wan... i miss falling in love(into the great depths of hell actually).
i have been spending alot of time wif matt... but sum how i could nv bring myself to commit myself to him, i'm scared of being hurt physically and mentally... i dun wan anything to happen to me again. And 2nd point matt lies too much, flirts too much and bums too much.
i have everything i wan in my life now... but why does this feeling have to come back again... sumtimes when i sleep i still dream of that bastard... its been almost 7mths i wanan forget everything, i wan everything to go away... going out now doesn't entertain me as much.. working isn't as fun anymore.. maybe i should juz extend my tattoo and juz fuck the emotions... *pain therapy*
i wan sumthing more in life then juz love... i dun wanna breath, eat, and live on love.. its totally pityful... prolly anotehr reason why i dun wanna get into a relationship is coz of the kinda weirdos that r after me... -.-||| *sigh* right now i have a guy who is juz a freak who is tryign his best to impress me... i'm not in the least bit interested by his weird acts of tailing me all over the place.
it was fun... during the last few mths.. i wish i could turn back time an juz let it stay there... *sigh* i'm confused about wat i wan in life... juz totally confused...
I feel weird now... sum how more lonely, and "sad-der". i miss that bastard so much suddenly, i miss having a relationship... a relationship that i wan... i miss falling in love(into the great depths of hell actually).
i have been spending alot of time wif matt... but sum how i could nv bring myself to commit myself to him, i'm scared of being hurt physically and mentally... i dun wan anything to happen to me again. And 2nd point matt lies too much, flirts too much and bums too much.
i have everything i wan in my life now... but why does this feeling have to come back again... sumtimes when i sleep i still dream of that bastard... its been almost 7mths i wanan forget everything, i wan everything to go away... going out now doesn't entertain me as much.. working isn't as fun anymore.. maybe i should juz extend my tattoo and juz fuck the emotions... *pain therapy*
i wan sumthing more in life then juz love... i dun wanna breath, eat, and live on love.. its totally pityful... prolly anotehr reason why i dun wanna get into a relationship is coz of the kinda weirdos that r after me... -.-||| *sigh* right now i have a guy who is juz a freak who is tryign his best to impress me... i'm not in the least bit interested by his weird acts of tailing me all over the place.
it was fun... during the last few mths.. i wish i could turn back time an juz let it stay there... *sigh* i'm confused about wat i wan in life... juz totally confused...
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
Saturday, April 02, 2005
haven't been blogging for a while, been to lazy and too tired as usual~
Well... situation at work is that my boss might be at the verge of firing me for sleeping too much at work.. LOL oh well... it would really be juz my luck, wouldn't it? LOL. i have not idea wat is gonna happen to me when i start workign full time... prolly i might die.. but still.. *sigh*... i guess i'm really too pampered. hehe.
Last night matt brought me to a new place to club it was okie.. juz that there was no mirrors.... >.< his sis, josphine, works there as a singer i think.. or sumthing like that.. but hell... she's damn good. she could even sing the chinese song one "night in bejing". I manage to befriend another one of his sis, Sonia, and she introduced me to this herd things... for tummie flattening and breast enhancement. i was quite amused... and hell it was onli 6 bucks. why not juz giev it a try right? anyways i have been complaining about my bulging tummie and my flat cheast all this while... LOL..sonia left 1/2 way. and i got a sms from the bastard telling me that this is his new number... i replied "erm.. okies.. so?" sigh... why can't juz bastards juz stay ou of my life? josphine as also telling matt and sunny that her husband had hit her... both the guys flared up.. while matt was telling me i was thinking about wat had happened in my last relationship... to stop myself from crying, i juz stared at the TV... i wasn't even aware of wat the TV was showing until matt said that he didn't know i as so interested in Pool. LOL i really had to luff..
after clubbing... we decided to go for supper at koptiam @ benclooen st. whiel waiting for his sis to be ready... sunny and matt was tellign me how scary his sis was back in secondray skool and how nice she was to them.. and how she helped them out all the time...
Okie.. so call me clumpsy... i tiped a whole plate of 1/2 a chicken and a bowl of noodle over onto my bag and onto his sis's stuff... >.< i fel super bad and super paisey.. i practically lost all my appetite... 1/2 a chicken lehz...... at the same time i broke my nail... >.< well.. i guess he got really angry... but he didn't shwo it and even told me that it wasn't my fault.
i found yesterday to be a veri pleasureable time out. even thou the huge mess which i had made.. they were still happyily chatting about their secondary skool days.. it as fun listening ot them complain about each other and all their little escapades.
We onli left for home at about 7 plus n the morning.. and it was raining and freezing cold.. >.<
I feel weird about the relationship i'm having wif matt how... its like we r together... but.. we both know that i dun love him... and that he is crazy about me... i dun mind the kisses the hugs and the sweet talks... thou its alittle to lovey dovey for me most of the time... *shivers* COLD! i've had enuff of commiting myself into a relationship.. i'm scared and i'm tired... when now when i think about the bastard i still wanna cry... cry for wat a fool i had been and how much my heart hurt when certain things happened... the best thign is he's still tryign to contact me.. and i juz accepted his MSN request.. i have no idea at i'm doing.. prolly i'm tired.. and i might wanna disappear for a while.. prolly a week or 2...
Well... situation at work is that my boss might be at the verge of firing me for sleeping too much at work.. LOL oh well... it would really be juz my luck, wouldn't it? LOL. i have not idea wat is gonna happen to me when i start workign full time... prolly i might die.. but still.. *sigh*... i guess i'm really too pampered. hehe.
Last night matt brought me to a new place to club it was okie.. juz that there was no mirrors.... >.< his sis, josphine, works there as a singer i think.. or sumthing like that.. but hell... she's damn good. she could even sing the chinese song one "night in bejing". I manage to befriend another one of his sis, Sonia, and she introduced me to this herd things... for tummie flattening and breast enhancement. i was quite amused... and hell it was onli 6 bucks. why not juz giev it a try right? anyways i have been complaining about my bulging tummie and my flat cheast all this while... LOL..sonia left 1/2 way. and i got a sms from the bastard telling me that this is his new number... i replied "erm.. okies.. so?" sigh... why can't juz bastards juz stay ou of my life? josphine as also telling matt and sunny that her husband had hit her... both the guys flared up.. while matt was telling me i was thinking about wat had happened in my last relationship... to stop myself from crying, i juz stared at the TV... i wasn't even aware of wat the TV was showing until matt said that he didn't know i as so interested in Pool. LOL i really had to luff..
after clubbing... we decided to go for supper at koptiam @ benclooen st. whiel waiting for his sis to be ready... sunny and matt was tellign me how scary his sis was back in secondray skool and how nice she was to them.. and how she helped them out all the time...
Okie.. so call me clumpsy... i tiped a whole plate of 1/2 a chicken and a bowl of noodle over onto my bag and onto his sis's stuff... >.< i fel super bad and super paisey.. i practically lost all my appetite... 1/2 a chicken lehz...... at the same time i broke my nail... >.< well.. i guess he got really angry... but he didn't shwo it and even told me that it wasn't my fault.
i found yesterday to be a veri pleasureable time out. even thou the huge mess which i had made.. they were still happyily chatting about their secondary skool days.. it as fun listening ot them complain about each other and all their little escapades.
We onli left for home at about 7 plus n the morning.. and it was raining and freezing cold.. >.<
I feel weird about the relationship i'm having wif matt how... its like we r together... but.. we both know that i dun love him... and that he is crazy about me... i dun mind the kisses the hugs and the sweet talks... thou its alittle to lovey dovey for me most of the time... *shivers* COLD! i've had enuff of commiting myself into a relationship.. i'm scared and i'm tired... when now when i think about the bastard i still wanna cry... cry for wat a fool i had been and how much my heart hurt when certain things happened... the best thign is he's still tryign to contact me.. and i juz accepted his MSN request.. i have no idea at i'm doing.. prolly i'm tired.. and i might wanna disappear for a while.. prolly a week or 2...