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WishList 2005
1. Backpacking
2. Brazillian Waxing
3. Full Face Waxing
4. Car Licence
5. Crazy Shopping Spree
6. EarringSSssss
7. Bike Licence
8. Taste Weed
9. New Handphone
10. Makeover
11. Lose 10kg
12. New Pair of Jeans
13. SunGlasses
14. A Pair Of Shoes
15. Siberian Husky Pup
16. Ball Python
not wat i was expecting
but juz as cute^^
17. Clubbing In Malaysia
18. Slack At A Beach Resort
19. Get A Good Watch For My Mummie
20. Get A Mont Blanc Pen For Daddie
21. PlayStation 2
22. Another Pair Of Jeans
23. Earphones
*smiles*
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Friends
.:Daryl:.
.:DreamBoi:.
.:LostBody:.
.:Ivan:.
.:Jacy:.
.:Nad:.
.:Princess:.
.:Ray:.
.:Red:.
.:Sheepie:.
.:Stacy:.
.:Veronica:.
.:Vik:.
Ideal Guy/Dream Guy
1. Tall [Prolly 1.76m]
2. Good Family Background
3. Sexy body
4. Chinese
5. Drives A Nice Car
6. Rides A Nice Bike
7. Able To Afford Me
8. Owns A Nice Tattoo
9. Smart/Street Wise
10. English Educated
11. Staying Near My Area
12. Parents Agreement [Vic Versa]
13. Kind Hearted
14. Romantic
15. Average Looking
16. Good Career
17. Gives In To Me
18. On My Frequency Of Thinking
19. Able To Click Well
20. Great In Bed
Saturday, March 26, 2005
~My Dear Ivan
~~The Ex Fairsians~
God! I hated that Place
~KaiLing And William~
~Remy Mike and Mark~
~Flings~
~Myself and Bro-in-Law~
~Nad and Vik~
~Nad and Mif~
~Girls~
~Charlie`s Angels~
~Again~
Kailing and William
The Slackers
The Tv Freaks
The Dreamers
The Posers
The Busy One
Kinky Messy
Hantu
de kat POSB ATM changi
Everything was great guys~ Thanks for everything... thou i'm sad to say.. its still stuck in my head.. how can a pouch that big go missing *sobz* i wan my wallet *sigh*
Wednesday, March 23, 2005
i'm so happy wif my new fone... no far the onli problems i'm having wif it its the transfering of data via blue tooth and that my message tones can't be customized~ but anyways.. it still looks good~ and its damn fucking loud~~ ^^ *jumps around in joy*
well last 2 days i was down if gastric and fever... >.< and i hated every moment of it... when the tummie achs came... it really came.. and when the headache come.. i juz wanna bang the wall.. the best thign was that stupid Mouse aka my boss, complained to my nyp lecturer.. saying i have been takin too many MCs.. -.-|| like wat the fuck sia its onli been like 3 MCs.. -.-|| fuckign pissed me off..
hmm... recently i have been planing on getting an exotic pet.. a sanke or sumthign weird... and it so happen that the traders i got to know also know that bastard's friend... >.< *sigh* i really can't escape... the world is really juz that small... well.. at least things didn't go so bad... we exchanged contacts and he invited me over to his place for viewing. 10 Ts, 1 snake, 5 chins, a couple of hammies, another couple of guniea pig and prolly a pair of SGs and a few lizards... >.< my god... i didn't know a 5 room flat could have so much space... >.< well.. i guess i'll have to make my way dwn sumt ime in april.. hopefully his zoo is still a life... and that i dun hear anything anymore about that bastard...
well last 2 days i was down if gastric and fever... >.< and i hated every moment of it... when the tummie achs came... it really came.. and when the headache come.. i juz wanna bang the wall.. the best thign was that stupid Mouse aka my boss, complained to my nyp lecturer.. saying i have been takin too many MCs.. -.-|| like wat the fuck sia its onli been like 3 MCs.. -.-|| fuckign pissed me off..
hmm... recently i have been planing on getting an exotic pet.. a sanke or sumthign weird... and it so happen that the traders i got to know also know that bastard's friend... >.< *sigh* i really can't escape... the world is really juz that small... well.. at least things didn't go so bad... we exchanged contacts and he invited me over to his place for viewing. 10 Ts, 1 snake, 5 chins, a couple of hammies, another couple of guniea pig and prolly a pair of SGs and a few lizards... >.< my god... i didn't know a 5 room flat could have so much space... >.< well.. i guess i'll have to make my way dwn sumt ime in april.. hopefully his zoo is still a life... and that i dun hear anything anymore about that bastard...
Monday, March 21, 2005
!!!!!MY NEW PHONE!!!!!
S700i
!!!!!!!!THANK YOU DADDIE!!!!!!!!!
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
my god...... 13 more hours.... i wanna dig a hoel and juz cry my eyes out.... >.<. for 21 year of my life... wat have benn doing? *sigh* i feel like i've juz wasted 21 years doing nth... i'm fucking freaked out by all this "age of independence" crap... *sobz* i still wanna be a kid... *sigh* even looking in the mirror now i feel sad... my young looks r gone... i look like an adult now..
Anyways... i was talking to Nad a while ago... she was trying to console and persude me that growing old isn't all that bad a thing.. in fact that it was. prob is i can't seem to see any good in it.
As i grow by day by day, year by year.. i start to see things tat i nv wanted to see... realized facts that i can't accept. Matt said sum like being 21 is a whole new experience, basically a whole new world compared to the young days. i'm still not ready.. still not willing to move on to his stag of life... i dun wanna carry the reasponsibility, i dun wanna carry the worries and burdens of an adult.
Having gotten older.. i started to realized that my grandma and parents won't be around forver.. they would have to leave me one day. i can't imagin myself wifout them... i dun wanna take care of myself... i wan them there for me always... *sigh* thinking about such things its juz making my head go crazy.
Just imagin... if i were really to get married or if sumone is juz so unlucky to have married me *poor guy*... it woudl be like in 6 years time.. give or take... about 2 years after i woudl have little monsters running all over me... >.< time is flying by too fast... and i have yet to do so many things. i wanna see the world under the wings of my parents.
i wonder if i'll ever forget that bastard and move on to my next relationship wif no hatred in my heart. last night sum chatter pissed me off, asking how's my relationship wif my bf going along... i mean wat the fuck... WAT bf... thou it was un-intentional.. i snapped slightly... memories of that god forsaken relationship is still stuck in my head... stuck in my heart... its like.. i'm so scared, even at the thought of getting attached freaks me out now. its becoz of that bastard that i've grown cold and crude... so crude that i tend to scare guys away. well its kinda of a good thing... * I think *
Right now i have everything... money i can spend, attention from friends and family, places to go, things to do... everything but one thing... -.-|| sex... i'm seriously deprived of sex that i'm dreaming of weird dreams these days... >.< Prolly that's why sumtime i feel like getting a guy... *pfft*
*sigh* a relationship... *pfft* un-nesscessary waste of time, money and effort, if u'd ask me..
Anyways... i was talking to Nad a while ago... she was trying to console and persude me that growing old isn't all that bad a thing.. in fact that it was. prob is i can't seem to see any good in it.
As i grow by day by day, year by year.. i start to see things tat i nv wanted to see... realized facts that i can't accept. Matt said sum like being 21 is a whole new experience, basically a whole new world compared to the young days. i'm still not ready.. still not willing to move on to his stag of life... i dun wanna carry the reasponsibility, i dun wanna carry the worries and burdens of an adult.
Having gotten older.. i started to realized that my grandma and parents won't be around forver.. they would have to leave me one day. i can't imagin myself wifout them... i dun wanna take care of myself... i wan them there for me always... *sigh* thinking about such things its juz making my head go crazy.
Just imagin... if i were really to get married or if sumone is juz so unlucky to have married me *poor guy*... it woudl be like in 6 years time.. give or take... about 2 years after i woudl have little monsters running all over me... >.< time is flying by too fast... and i have yet to do so many things. i wanna see the world under the wings of my parents.
i wonder if i'll ever forget that bastard and move on to my next relationship wif no hatred in my heart. last night sum chatter pissed me off, asking how's my relationship wif my bf going along... i mean wat the fuck... WAT bf... thou it was un-intentional.. i snapped slightly... memories of that god forsaken relationship is still stuck in my head... stuck in my heart... its like.. i'm so scared, even at the thought of getting attached freaks me out now. its becoz of that bastard that i've grown cold and crude... so crude that i tend to scare guys away. well its kinda of a good thing... * I think *
Right now i have everything... money i can spend, attention from friends and family, places to go, things to do... everything but one thing... -.-|| sex... i'm seriously deprived of sex that i'm dreaming of weird dreams these days... >.< Prolly that's why sumtime i feel like getting a guy... *pfft*
*sigh* a relationship... *pfft* un-nesscessary waste of time, money and effort, if u'd ask me..
Tuesday, March 15, 2005
i'm seriouslt so freaked out.!! in sunday my parents helped me celebrate my 21st bday at home.. they invited everyone!! and i mean everyone! both side of the family were over... and the house was like a mad house wif kids running all over the place.
Anyways.. wat really freaked me out was the teasing i got.. *sobz* my uncles and aunties were teasing em like mad.. and freaked me otu so badly.. saythign that i have the golden key~~ and my parents can kick me out of the house any time from now.. i was like so shocked~~ then my father said that he won't kick me out now.. he said he will give me anotehr 2 years years.. that wa steh worst shock in my life.. i seriously thought he was gonna kick me out of the house. my eyes started watering and all and my relatives juz continued luffing and teasing me... -.-|| evil people... i think whenmy daddie saw me freaked out he came over and patted meon the head.. telling me not to worry... he's nv gonna kick me out and stuff liek tat.. i can leave the house onli after i get married, else i can stay wif him as long as i wan to~ >.< i couldn't takeit anymore and ran to my room to cry... i seriously cried sia.. i took at least 10 mins to calm myself dwn by playing games. thank god i stopped crying when daddie came in to check on me.. asking me
wat's wrong. >.<
anyways it was fun... got lots of stuff... jewellery, cash and a watch.. ^^ so happy~ my it seems like the money in my bank is growing day by day.. i damn happy sia... muz save le.. cannot spend anymore... >.< next week onwards i'm planning not to take anymroe cash from my daddie anymore.. unless i really need it.
which reminds me.. jade is gonna so kill me.... i forgot to bring my hp to work to day... >.< wonder how many miss calls she has given me already... :x Sori Mama san!!! dun kill me~~
Anyways.. wat really freaked me out was the teasing i got.. *sobz* my uncles and aunties were teasing em like mad.. and freaked me otu so badly.. saythign that i have the golden key~~ and my parents can kick me out of the house any time from now.. i was like so shocked~~ then my father said that he won't kick me out now.. he said he will give me anotehr 2 years years.. that wa steh worst shock in my life.. i seriously thought he was gonna kick me out of the house. my eyes started watering and all and my relatives juz continued luffing and teasing me... -.-|| evil people... i think whenmy daddie saw me freaked out he came over and patted meon the head.. telling me not to worry... he's nv gonna kick me out and stuff liek tat.. i can leave the house onli after i get married, else i can stay wif him as long as i wan to~ >.< i couldn't takeit anymore and ran to my room to cry... i seriously cried sia.. i took at least 10 mins to calm myself dwn by playing games. thank god i stopped crying when daddie came in to check on me.. asking me
wat's wrong. >.<
anyways it was fun... got lots of stuff... jewellery, cash and a watch.. ^^ so happy~ my it seems like the money in my bank is growing day by day.. i damn happy sia... muz save le.. cannot spend anymore... >.< next week onwards i'm planning not to take anymroe cash from my daddie anymore.. unless i really need it.
which reminds me.. jade is gonna so kill me.... i forgot to bring my hp to work to day... >.< wonder how many miss calls she has given me already... :x Sori Mama san!!! dun kill me~~
Sunday, March 13, 2005
kk.. where should i start?
- brazilian waxing
- pork knuckles/manicure
- last night's bday celebration
Kkk.. as u guys alreayd known.. i went for my brazilian waxinga couple days back... i can onli say 2 things... i saw a lot of stars and i would choose doing a tattoo over waxing anytime! at least now.. i'm hairless and clean~~~~ LOL i'm so happy.. thou.. it does feel alittle weird... LOL
oh firday i took an MC to settle sum of my banking crap... i was shocked to realize that 170++ in my other inactive account... haha and that my pay for my attachment in FINALLY in.. but its short of a 100... -.-||| sigh.. poor me.. this morning daddie passed my a check of 500 for my bank.. but i'm not allowed to use it... LOL hmm. sori if thsi blog seems veri blocky.. i'm still having a major hang over... lol
yesterday was damn fun... met emily at 4 for dinner/lunch at barden's.. a german pub/restruant.. we had pork knuckles and sauages... *drools* its was seriously damn shiok sia... the skin was crispy and the meat was damn tender.... but we coudln't finish it.. >.< LOL after that.. we went for our manicure.. its damn shiok to have this kinda pampering once ina while.. my nails r liek damn red now... lol choose the wrong colour.. and after lasy night.. it seems like my colour is coming off already... i'm seriously too rough for this kinda girly crap. lol
~~~blood red nails~~~
Ks.. so anyways.. last night.. matt helped me celebrate my bday.. he got a whole lot of pple down.. lol and ireally enjoyed myself last night... candy was sweet enuff to get me a present. thou it was small.. but i appreciate it.. lol basically i was bound to be dead yesterday... everyone wanted me wasted. >.< i as drinking wif. erm... john, jeffery, bao pi, andy, matt, chris and suiling. *bleah* i can still taste the 151 shot in my mouth... *PUKES* had great fun...
one incident was that i bit matt on the chest... a veri tender part which was bound to hurt like fuck.... then he was in teh guys loo checking his wound... then his guy came in wif a damn shocked look on his face.. and say he will use the cubicial or sumthing like tat.. haha i think he thought tat matt and i were makign out or sumthing coz i was pullign at his shirt and he was like 1/2 un-buttoned.. lol
then there was when matt had to send da jie da off coz she was feelign really bored... then suddenly john started to dirty dancing wif me from behind.. lol i was like erm.. okie... danced wif him for a while then i walked away.. then chris came.. i thought it was matt... coz they were wearing the same colour shirt.. i almost turned to kiss him sia... lol thank god matt not around.. if not he sure damn jealous. :x candy told me the john is trying to chase me or sumthing like tat.. then he was asking me to get his number from anyone in the gang... i was like thinking "wat makes u think i would wan your number.." after they left... matt told me it was time to go and gave me a rose..
we met everyone at city front again, then suddenly john took his hp... matt said that he thinks tat john was trying to look for my hp number... but he didn't save my number in the hp.. he memorized it by heart lol.. aw... so sweet... LOL
last night i was pukin like hell.. i puke once i got home... twice in the middle of the night... and i lost count of how many times i puked.. lol but all in all yesterday was a damn fun day... i loved everything about it. and it damn nice to know that guys r still interested in me... haha. *flattered* lol
btw here's me. after effects of drying my hair wif a towel...
countdown: 4 days....
- brazilian waxing
- pork knuckles/manicure
- last night's bday celebration
Kkk.. as u guys alreayd known.. i went for my brazilian waxinga couple days back... i can onli say 2 things... i saw a lot of stars and i would choose doing a tattoo over waxing anytime! at least now.. i'm hairless and clean~~~~ LOL i'm so happy.. thou.. it does feel alittle weird... LOL
oh firday i took an MC to settle sum of my banking crap... i was shocked to realize that 170++ in my other inactive account... haha and that my pay for my attachment in FINALLY in.. but its short of a 100... -.-||| sigh.. poor me.. this morning daddie passed my a check of 500 for my bank.. but i'm not allowed to use it... LOL hmm. sori if thsi blog seems veri blocky.. i'm still having a major hang over... lol
yesterday was damn fun... met emily at 4 for dinner/lunch at barden's.. a german pub/restruant.. we had pork knuckles and sauages... *drools* its was seriously damn shiok sia... the skin was crispy and the meat was damn tender.... but we coudln't finish it.. >.< LOL after that.. we went for our manicure.. its damn shiok to have this kinda pampering once ina while.. my nails r liek damn red now... lol choose the wrong colour.. and after lasy night.. it seems like my colour is coming off already... i'm seriously too rough for this kinda girly crap. lol
~~~blood red nails~~~
Ks.. so anyways.. last night.. matt helped me celebrate my bday.. he got a whole lot of pple down.. lol and ireally enjoyed myself last night... candy was sweet enuff to get me a present. thou it was small.. but i appreciate it.. lol basically i was bound to be dead yesterday... everyone wanted me wasted. >.< i as drinking wif. erm... john, jeffery, bao pi, andy, matt, chris and suiling. *bleah* i can still taste the 151 shot in my mouth... *PUKES* had great fun...
one incident was that i bit matt on the chest... a veri tender part which was bound to hurt like fuck.... then he was in teh guys loo checking his wound... then his guy came in wif a damn shocked look on his face.. and say he will use the cubicial or sumthing like tat.. haha i think he thought tat matt and i were makign out or sumthing coz i was pullign at his shirt and he was like 1/2 un-buttoned.. lol
then there was when matt had to send da jie da off coz she was feelign really bored... then suddenly john started to dirty dancing wif me from behind.. lol i was like erm.. okie... danced wif him for a while then i walked away.. then chris came.. i thought it was matt... coz they were wearing the same colour shirt.. i almost turned to kiss him sia... lol thank god matt not around.. if not he sure damn jealous. :x candy told me the john is trying to chase me or sumthing like tat.. then he was asking me to get his number from anyone in the gang... i was like thinking "wat makes u think i would wan your number.." after they left... matt told me it was time to go and gave me a rose..
we met everyone at city front again, then suddenly john took his hp... matt said that he thinks tat john was trying to look for my hp number... but he didn't save my number in the hp.. he memorized it by heart lol.. aw... so sweet... LOL
last night i was pukin like hell.. i puke once i got home... twice in the middle of the night... and i lost count of how many times i puked.. lol but all in all yesterday was a damn fun day... i loved everything about it. and it damn nice to know that guys r still interested in me... haha. *flattered* lol
btw here's me. after effects of drying my hair wif a towel...
countdown: 4 days....
Thursday, March 10, 2005
hmm.. lets see.. dun really have much to say bout in this entry.. all i can say is that i'm damn excited over my bday... its not gonna be sumthing grand or anything... but the thought of turning 21 juz excites me... erm.. its kinda freaks me out too.. gwad.. wif al the reasponsibility and stuff.. and the thought of not getting allownce from my parents kinda puts me off.
Anyways thsi is the kitten my sis brought home.. haha.. kinda looks like a little monkey if u ask me. and my other cat is so jealous.. she hasn't stepped into the house for 3 or 4 days, ever since this new member of our family arrived.
-New Kitten-
Oh oh.. i almost forgot.. haha i took 1/2 day off coz i needed to take my advance theory... kinda flopped it i guess.. i didn't even study it at all, so i decided wat the hell juz book it again... that was when i found out i needed 73 bucks for my enrolment for RTT.. -.-||| *sigh* gotta start saving up badly... too many tings i wanan do but so little cash and so little time.
well. since i was at YCK i took the time to have lunch wif nurul jac and shy.. i was so glad to be finally in a clean and nice toilet. i decided to take sum pictures.... LOL
Kinky Biker Chick Pose
Dun ask me why...
she juz jumped in while i was clicking
EXTRA!
Myself and jac
Damn bo liaoz.. i know.. but i like~~
Later today i'll be going for my brazilian waxing... god i'm freaked out! its gonna hurt me SOOoooooo much! i wanna do my nails and get my face done again.. but i need to save the cash for my bike lic!!! SHIT! so should i go for the face threading and nail job? or should i juz skip it? >.<
Anyways thsi is the kitten my sis brought home.. haha.. kinda looks like a little monkey if u ask me. and my other cat is so jealous.. she hasn't stepped into the house for 3 or 4 days, ever since this new member of our family arrived.
-New Kitten-
Oh oh.. i almost forgot.. haha i took 1/2 day off coz i needed to take my advance theory... kinda flopped it i guess.. i didn't even study it at all, so i decided wat the hell juz book it again... that was when i found out i needed 73 bucks for my enrolment for RTT.. -.-||| *sigh* gotta start saving up badly... too many tings i wanan do but so little cash and so little time.
well. since i was at YCK i took the time to have lunch wif nurul jac and shy.. i was so glad to be finally in a clean and nice toilet. i decided to take sum pictures.... LOL
Kinky Biker Chick Pose
Dun ask me why...
she juz jumped in while i was clicking
EXTRA!
Myself and jac
Damn bo liaoz.. i know.. but i like~~
Later today i'll be going for my brazilian waxing... god i'm freaked out! its gonna hurt me SOOoooooo much! i wanna do my nails and get my face done again.. but i need to save the cash for my bike lic!!! SHIT! so should i go for the face threading and nail job? or should i juz skip it? >.<
Monday, March 07, 2005
~~New Hair Cut~~
all i can say is that i had a great day today.... jus got my sweet arse home from JB, waiting for my hair to dry.. haha Vik you should had come. u LBM!
Met nurul after her work headed dwn to JB... walked around city square and waiting for your driver aka nurul's honey aka bro-in-law to pick us up. haha. Basically today we were cruising around jb listening to great music.. and damn... That guy really has sum great sound system. i've gotta try my technoSSsss out in his car... even thou this time round in JB we didn't do anything silly or crazy.. it was still really enjoyable. i love the feeling of juz cruising around... looking out of the window, listening to sum good beats and juz enjoying the ride~ its really a LBM's life style that i can't afford in sg... too many things to do... so little time. haha
Oh lol and Ram got his tungus pireced [i think that's how u spell it, the small bone at your ear, he was really funny and all... scared that it might hurt. but seriously it didn't hurt. not that much anyway... after getting it pierced he was so proud about it. haha.
Sumtime i really wonder where i'll be without nurul. i think i really stick around her too much.. its been liek 3 years we have been friends and stuff doing all the crappy stuff together, your disagreements and all.. but all in all we still nv get sick of each other. it seems like we have a million things to talk about.. the whoel day i was stickign to her like super gule... erm..of coz i was out of the way when they were making out and shit.*oops* LOL thx babe~
well on the way home... i was trying to convince matt to celebrate my bday at bq rather than MOS... coz candy was telling me he was short on cash but he doesn't wan me to be unhappy and stuff like tat.. so yea... i was demanding and telling him i wan it at cheers and stuff like tat... he seems unhapy about it coz he was scared i might not enjoy myself and stuff.. but seriously... even if it was at BQ and he was willing to help me celebrate it... i'm already happy enuff... at least he took the effort to do it.. unlike my useless ex bfSSssss. in the end... he got Robert... 69's old dj [our fav place, b4 it closed dwn] to be the DJ for the night. haha he has the best songs and he knows our fav songs. lol i really wonder how sat is gonna be like, 5 years know the group... and thou i dun talk to them much.. coz sum how or rather i know they really dislike me for making use of matt.. :x yea anyway knowing them for 5 years.. i have nv celebrated my bday wif them b4... so yea.. its either they r really gonna make me die that day.. or they will juz not border like b4. hehe.
This 21st bday... well.. i'm not expecting anything grand.. prolly juz that i have a lot of dinners to attend this mth... other then tat... i think its gonna be pretty normal. i'm juz so happy that eveyrone is so excited for me and all.. my relatives r like.. oh so fast u r 21 already... dun worry we sure come one that kinda thing.. friends r like... 21 already... haha u r gonna be so dead that kinda thing. haha.. seriously i dunno if i should juz luff or cry. LOL
Met nurul after her work headed dwn to JB... walked around city square and waiting for your driver aka nurul's honey aka bro-in-law to pick us up. haha. Basically today we were cruising around jb listening to great music.. and damn... That guy really has sum great sound system. i've gotta try my technoSSsss out in his car... even thou this time round in JB we didn't do anything silly or crazy.. it was still really enjoyable. i love the feeling of juz cruising around... looking out of the window, listening to sum good beats and juz enjoying the ride~ its really a LBM's life style that i can't afford in sg... too many things to do... so little time. haha
Oh lol and Ram got his tungus pireced [i think that's how u spell it, the small bone at your ear, he was really funny and all... scared that it might hurt. but seriously it didn't hurt. not that much anyway... after getting it pierced he was so proud about it. haha.
Sumtime i really wonder where i'll be without nurul. i think i really stick around her too much.. its been liek 3 years we have been friends and stuff doing all the crappy stuff together, your disagreements and all.. but all in all we still nv get sick of each other. it seems like we have a million things to talk about.. the whoel day i was stickign to her like super gule... erm..of coz i was out of the way when they were making out and shit.*oops* LOL thx babe~
well on the way home... i was trying to convince matt to celebrate my bday at bq rather than MOS... coz candy was telling me he was short on cash but he doesn't wan me to be unhappy and stuff like tat.. so yea... i was demanding and telling him i wan it at cheers and stuff like tat... he seems unhapy about it coz he was scared i might not enjoy myself and stuff.. but seriously... even if it was at BQ and he was willing to help me celebrate it... i'm already happy enuff... at least he took the effort to do it.. unlike my useless ex bfSSssss. in the end... he got Robert... 69's old dj [our fav place, b4 it closed dwn] to be the DJ for the night. haha he has the best songs and he knows our fav songs. lol i really wonder how sat is gonna be like, 5 years know the group... and thou i dun talk to them much.. coz sum how or rather i know they really dislike me for making use of matt.. :x yea anyway knowing them for 5 years.. i have nv celebrated my bday wif them b4... so yea.. its either they r really gonna make me die that day.. or they will juz not border like b4. hehe.
This 21st bday... well.. i'm not expecting anything grand.. prolly juz that i have a lot of dinners to attend this mth... other then tat... i think its gonna be pretty normal. i'm juz so happy that eveyrone is so excited for me and all.. my relatives r like.. oh so fast u r 21 already... dun worry we sure come one that kinda thing.. friends r like... 21 already... haha u r gonna be so dead that kinda thing. haha.. seriously i dunno if i should juz luff or cry. LOL
Sunday, March 06, 2005
kk i think its tiem to change my blog...its liek i'm gettign werid messages from sick gutless pple.. and pple who i really hope is not reading my blog at all. LOL then again they could be the same person having split personalities. *shrugs*
anyways.. i so needa knock myself out soonish. work has been great... customers today were weird as usual... and a good hair cut... good dinner.. dad came home wif a bottle of tequlia for me... erm.. i guess that's a total of 3 btls now... hahaha you guys can drink till u drop! gwad.. the weekend is ending real soonish.. >.< its too damn fast... juz 7 more weeks and i can fucking fuck off from skool and work.. hahaha so many things i needa do.. so little time.
anyways.. i so needa knock myself out soonish. work has been great... customers today were weird as usual... and a good hair cut... good dinner.. dad came home wif a bottle of tequlia for me... erm.. i guess that's a total of 3 btls now... hahaha you guys can drink till u drop! gwad.. the weekend is ending real soonish.. >.< its too damn fast... juz 7 more weeks and i can fucking fuck off from skool and work.. hahaha so many things i needa do.. so little time.
Friday, March 04, 2005
*sigh* this is so not a good day for me.. feeling damn depressed. All thanks to that BASTARD! why did he have to fuck everything up? i seriously did love me him so veri much... i tried to give him everything i could... fucking hell... i've wasted to much time, money and effort.... any wat did i get in the end? the bastard runs off wif another girl happily. *sobs* serious sia... i juz feel like breaking dwn and cry again. i feel so damn fucking stupid to have loved and trusted him so much... fucking hell.. all guys r bloody bastard!
Prolly is my period/PMS acting up... its making me feel all weird. i wanna get aguy... but fuck... i would think it through 10 times, b4 getting one.. After wat that bastard did to me.. gwad.... i rather go fuck myself.
The time we had were fun... but they were all lies.. all fucking lies! He had nv loved me.. and nv did love me... i was juz another fucking toy.
Its already been wat? 5mths since this relationship ended... i thought i was all over it already.. but stupid fucking things like that juz had to pop up and fuck me up again! if i were to say i miss the feeling of BGR love.. fuck i would be lying to myself.. coz i had nv felt real BGR love in my life! all the guys i dated were bastards and they will always be bastards.
Prolly is my period/PMS acting up... its making me feel all weird. i wanna get aguy... but fuck... i would think it through 10 times, b4 getting one.. After wat that bastard did to me.. gwad.... i rather go fuck myself.
The time we had were fun... but they were all lies.. all fucking lies! He had nv loved me.. and nv did love me... i was juz another fucking toy.
Its already been wat? 5mths since this relationship ended... i thought i was all over it already.. but stupid fucking things like that juz had to pop up and fuck me up again! if i were to say i miss the feeling of BGR love.. fuck i would be lying to myself.. coz i had nv felt real BGR love in my life! all the guys i dated were bastards and they will always be bastards.
Thursday, March 03, 2005
Gwad...................... I wanna.. the job isn't so bad.. its juz then damn environment! FUCK! and of coz not to mention the WORKING HOURS! i'm seriously gonna bum for at least 6 mhs b4 i get a real job...
i dunno why i juz feel so damn fucking fucked up today... >.< i lack sleep.. i'm having a pimple out break... i'm broke... i'm growing fats.. my head hurts... so does my tummie... and i'm bleeding to death. its always a good thing to have regular periods.. but fuck... i dun appreciate it AT ALL... since i haven't had sex for 5 mths! *headach*
i serious gotta get myself laid like soonish... all this stored up horniness is making me cranky... -.-||| and no.... i will not have sex wif matt.. so dun even think about suggesting it to me.
another 14 days to my bday... i have so many things to do... Gwad! i even have to call my relatives one by one.. juz to invite them over for dinner... >.< i dreed calling my perternal relatives.. snobish bunch.... *pfft*
i hope i get a new phone for my bday... >.< i seriously wanna get that S700i... but its gonna so cost a bomb... i doubt matt would get it for me.. and my daddie woudl kill me if i asked for sumthing like that... >.< *sigh* looks like i'm gonna have to go broke again... *sobz* Its my 21st bday... and i'm not even excited.. i'm juz complaining about anything and everything. gwad.. i'm weird... i bet its coz of my period or sumthing... *sigh*
i dunno why i juz feel so damn fucking fucked up today... >.< i lack sleep.. i'm having a pimple out break... i'm broke... i'm growing fats.. my head hurts... so does my tummie... and i'm bleeding to death. its always a good thing to have regular periods.. but fuck... i dun appreciate it AT ALL... since i haven't had sex for 5 mths! *headach*
i serious gotta get myself laid like soonish... all this stored up horniness is making me cranky... -.-||| and no.... i will not have sex wif matt.. so dun even think about suggesting it to me.
another 14 days to my bday... i have so many things to do... Gwad! i even have to call my relatives one by one.. juz to invite them over for dinner... >.< i dreed calling my perternal relatives.. snobish bunch.... *pfft*
i hope i get a new phone for my bday... >.< i seriously wanna get that S700i... but its gonna so cost a bomb... i doubt matt would get it for me.. and my daddie woudl kill me if i asked for sumthing like that... >.< *sigh* looks like i'm gonna have to go broke again... *sobz* Its my 21st bday... and i'm not even excited.. i'm juz complaining about anything and everything. gwad.. i'm weird... i bet its coz of my period or sumthing... *sigh*
Tuesday, March 01, 2005
I am so god damn freaking tired................. this job is juz making my life go dwn the drain... everytime i look at myself in the mirror i can see that i have lost all my youth already... >.< i'm old already.... *sigh*
Atleast every other i get to meet the rest of the void deck gouuay gang... i got to luff like hell yesterday.. wif all the eddie murphy joke.. "EEEdddieeeeeee, wat have u doone foor me laaatleeee...." had a nice dinenr at lucky plaza... and the drink store uncle.. [ wanna be bartender, he was flaring cups and spoon all over the place ] he commented on my tattoo saying it looks good. haha. i got my replacement for my sunglasses.
Yesterday iw as so bored playing Tic Tac Toe and solitare wif teh bastard.... *shrugs* dun ask me why... anyways... yea he disappeared liek he always does.. so heck..
*sigh* i feel sad... i'm growing old... and no one wans me... in 5 mths... its like... i onli think matt is after me... other then tat... i think everyone is sacred of me or sumthing... Ram told me... he told me that he doesn't think any guys guy would be able to handle me.. which i think might me true... i'm not your normal/average chinese singaporean girl... i demand too much... and i'm way too playful... :X HAHAHA
I really wonder how my life is gonna be when i grad from nyp... i wanna see the world... and i wanna have fun... but there is too little time.. and too little cash on my hands to be a bummer...
My 21st bday is in 16 days... i dunno if i should be happy.. or worried... the older i get.. the more scared i become.. so many reasponsiblities... so many hurting facts that i can't face... *sigh* 21st... i dun wanna carry all this burden. i still wanna be a kid...
Atleast every other i get to meet the rest of the void deck gouuay gang... i got to luff like hell yesterday.. wif all the eddie murphy joke.. "EEEdddieeeeeee, wat have u doone foor me laaatleeee...." had a nice dinenr at lucky plaza... and the drink store uncle.. [ wanna be bartender, he was flaring cups and spoon all over the place ] he commented on my tattoo saying it looks good. haha. i got my replacement for my sunglasses.
Yesterday iw as so bored playing Tic Tac Toe and solitare wif teh bastard.... *shrugs* dun ask me why... anyways... yea he disappeared liek he always does.. so heck..
*sigh* i feel sad... i'm growing old... and no one wans me... in 5 mths... its like... i onli think matt is after me... other then tat... i think everyone is sacred of me or sumthing... Ram told me... he told me that he doesn't think any guys guy would be able to handle me.. which i think might me true... i'm not your normal/average chinese singaporean girl... i demand too much... and i'm way too playful... :X HAHAHA
I really wonder how my life is gonna be when i grad from nyp... i wanna see the world... and i wanna have fun... but there is too little time.. and too little cash on my hands to be a bummer...
My 21st bday is in 16 days... i dunno if i should be happy.. or worried... the older i get.. the more scared i become.. so many reasponsiblities... so many hurting facts that i can't face... *sigh* 21st... i dun wanna carry all this burden. i still wanna be a kid...