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WishList 2005
1. Backpacking
2. Brazillian Waxing
3. Full Face Waxing
4. Car Licence
5. Crazy Shopping Spree
6. EarringSSssss
7. Bike Licence
8. Taste Weed
9. New Handphone
10. Makeover
11. Lose 10kg
12. New Pair of Jeans
13. SunGlasses
14. A Pair Of Shoes
15. Siberian Husky Pup
16. Ball Python
not wat i was expecting
but juz as cute^^
17. Clubbing In Malaysia
18. Slack At A Beach Resort
19. Get A Good Watch For My Mummie
20. Get A Mont Blanc Pen For Daddie
21. PlayStation 2
22. Another Pair Of Jeans
23. Earphones
*smiles*
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Friends
.:Daryl:.
.:DreamBoi:.
.:LostBody:.
.:Ivan:.
.:Jacy:.
.:Nad:.
.:Princess:.
.:Ray:.
.:Red:.
.:Sheepie:.
.:Stacy:.
.:Veronica:.
.:Vik:.
Ideal Guy/Dream Guy
1. Tall [Prolly 1.76m]
2. Good Family Background
3. Sexy body
4. Chinese
5. Drives A Nice Car
6. Rides A Nice Bike
7. Able To Afford Me
8. Owns A Nice Tattoo
9. Smart/Street Wise
10. English Educated
11. Staying Near My Area
12. Parents Agreement [Vic Versa]
13. Kind Hearted
14. Romantic
15. Average Looking
16. Good Career
17. Gives In To Me
18. On My Frequency Of Thinking
19. Able To Click Well
20. Great In Bed
Friday, October 29, 2004
*sigh* wat's up wif bryan man... -.-||| seriously i like him better when he was in camp... at least he makes the effort to call me and make plans to go out wif me.. right now he doesn't even wan to call me and makes the excuse that his sir call him la.. his mum this la.. his dad this la.. i mean.. crap! i'm sick and i had to call him today then he will ask me u feeling better or not? after than then he will call.. but he nv did... until i sent him an sms saying how much i like him better when he was in camp.. he calls me for 10sec and tells me his sir call him... -.-|| i was like... dun call me back also like tat... i seriously no mood sia.. and to think that he really changed...
anyways... right now i have my heart set on getting a chin... not to sure if that would happen but yea... really plan on getting one... my march i have to save up at least 1k.. ZZzZZzzZZ i'm onli stuck wif like 100 at the moment *sobz* 900 more to go~ :~~~
Hope my friends would bao me big ang baos for my bday~~ lOL *hints* haiz... 1st i gotta settle my exams... my god.. i think i'm gonna die~
anyways... right now i have my heart set on getting a chin... not to sure if that would happen but yea... really plan on getting one... my march i have to save up at least 1k.. ZZzZZzzZZ i'm onli stuck wif like 100 at the moment *sobz* 900 more to go~ :~~~
Hope my friends would bao me big ang baos for my bday~~ lOL *hints* haiz... 1st i gotta settle my exams... my god.. i think i'm gonna die~
Thursday, October 28, 2004
lets see... its been a long time since i did and entry... wel... days have been a little rocky for me these days... i kinda failed 2 modules already... and wel.. i have another 2 more papers to go.
Right now.. i'm dwn wif fever and a horrible sore throat... i hate being sick... no one cares for me when i am sick. *sigh* bryan doesn't even care at all...
but last week we was really nice... he brought me to JB even though i had no cash... and when i stayed at his house... he bought me curry chicken for lunch... ican't really explain or give the whole details right now... but he was sweet... i hope he staies like tat and improves more.... rigth now.. it hink i had better rest.... my head's starting to spin again
Right now.. i'm dwn wif fever and a horrible sore throat... i hate being sick... no one cares for me when i am sick. *sigh* bryan doesn't even care at all...
but last week we was really nice... he brought me to JB even though i had no cash... and when i stayed at his house... he bought me curry chicken for lunch... ican't really explain or give the whole details right now... but he was sweet... i hope he staies like tat and improves more.... rigth now.. it hink i had better rest.... my head's starting to spin again
Thursday, October 14, 2004
I took alook in my partner's blog today... my god.. i am so pissed at how much more snobish she can be!
QUOTE FROM A CHIRSTIAN'S SNOB BLOG
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well... Yesterday.. I had a very bad day.. My partner is again late for the presentation of the project.. and I was very angry because it was like for the 3rd time.. and I was not really angry that she didn't do much for the project.. but i really think that it is your responsibility as a partner to be present at the presentation.. for the past 2 times, she was late.. but i was fine with me.. cos i myself wasn't very ready and the project wasn't very ready.. but this time was like the 3rd time, and the presentation was at 1 pm.. I mean if you really have to work.. then dont let me know like 20mins before the presentation.. and worst still was she blamed me.. the sms(es) she sent was like razor blades piercing thru my heart.. the fact that i dont really like her in the first place, but still i worked very hard to get the project done.. the fact that she cant even get the report dont properly, yet she thinks that she can handle the project and she blamed me for not giving her a chance to do so.. And reason being that i worked hard to get the project done is because, even if i fail i will not wanna drag another person with me.. and i REALLY didn't appreciate it when she place the blames on me and when she said "Tell u wat. Since u r all snobish and perfect. U can jus carry on wif the presentation if u wan. Rich kids like u make me sick." I felt really insulted and I felt like i was given a tight slap across my face.. I felt like a fool all of a sudden.. why should i bother to help someone like that in the first place.. i was like telling myself 'jan, why bother stay up all night to get the project done, and getting such sms?'
Anyway, i was very angry.. i went ahead with the presentation. the lec asked me if she did participate in the project, I said yes.. then i was soo stressed.. i decide that i really need to cut my hair.. long hair makes me feel like my head is very heavy..but john managed to cheer me up a bit.. went for prayer meeting n BS.. my mood was a bit lifted up and feeling better..
Came home.. then Quanjie and Munsang was like trying to cool me off what happened in the day.. Even thou I know I am the biggest fool on earth, still i sent them the project so that they can pass to her.. and she can get to present.. give Quanjie and Munsang face.. anyway.. Munsang n Quanjie n "her" used to be from the same class.. and Munsang did help me quite a bit... so ya...
Then i was talking to andy.. I was like joking to him.. cos he has a headache for sometime.. i was jokingly say that it might be tumour.. he got pissed with me.. and I simply cannot tolerate people using the F word on me.. so I didn't wanna talk to him after that..there is a limit to my patience, and he have been scolding me time n again for the smallest mistake or sometimes no mistakes and i have had enough..i mean as much as i cherish this friendship.. all he did was to make things difficult for me.. and no matter how hard i try to show him concern etc.. it is like never enough.. and all he does each time after he vent his anger on me was just a sorry.. which i time and again, forgive him thinking that he was sincere.. but no.. he treat me like dirt.. and i really am tired trying and if he dont wanna this friendship.. then there is nothing i can do and i really dont wanna cheapen myself to give in all the time.. it is NOT my fault that he is in a depression or he is lost in a world of his own... I have no obligation to help him find a gf and no obligation to let him vent his anger on me.. I really cherish the friendship we had, but i am too tired.. I am never good enough to him...
After yesterday, i felt like a punching bag.. why ppl vent their anger on me?
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I dun understand how ppel like her can have so many wonderful things in life...
QUOTE FROM A CHIRSTIAN'S SNOB BLOG
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well... Yesterday.. I had a very bad day.. My partner is again late for the presentation of the project.. and I was very angry because it was like for the 3rd time.. and I was not really angry that she didn't do much for the project.. but i really think that it is your responsibility as a partner to be present at the presentation.. for the past 2 times, she was late.. but i was fine with me.. cos i myself wasn't very ready and the project wasn't very ready.. but this time was like the 3rd time, and the presentation was at 1 pm.. I mean if you really have to work.. then dont let me know like 20mins before the presentation.. and worst still was she blamed me.. the sms(es) she sent was like razor blades piercing thru my heart.. the fact that i dont really like her in the first place, but still i worked very hard to get the project done.. the fact that she cant even get the report dont properly, yet she thinks that she can handle the project and she blamed me for not giving her a chance to do so.. And reason being that i worked hard to get the project done is because, even if i fail i will not wanna drag another person with me.. and i REALLY didn't appreciate it when she place the blames on me and when she said "Tell u wat. Since u r all snobish and perfect. U can jus carry on wif the presentation if u wan. Rich kids like u make me sick." I felt really insulted and I felt like i was given a tight slap across my face.. I felt like a fool all of a sudden.. why should i bother to help someone like that in the first place.. i was like telling myself 'jan, why bother stay up all night to get the project done, and getting such sms?'
Anyway, i was very angry.. i went ahead with the presentation. the lec asked me if she did participate in the project, I said yes.. then i was soo stressed.. i decide that i really need to cut my hair.. long hair makes me feel like my head is very heavy..but john managed to cheer me up a bit.. went for prayer meeting n BS.. my mood was a bit lifted up and feeling better..
Came home.. then Quanjie and Munsang was like trying to cool me off what happened in the day.. Even thou I know I am the biggest fool on earth, still i sent them the project so that they can pass to her.. and she can get to present.. give Quanjie and Munsang face.. anyway.. Munsang n Quanjie n "her" used to be from the same class.. and Munsang did help me quite a bit... so ya...
Then i was talking to andy.. I was like joking to him.. cos he has a headache for sometime.. i was jokingly say that it might be tumour.. he got pissed with me.. and I simply cannot tolerate people using the F word on me.. so I didn't wanna talk to him after that..there is a limit to my patience, and he have been scolding me time n again for the smallest mistake or sometimes no mistakes and i have had enough..i mean as much as i cherish this friendship.. all he did was to make things difficult for me.. and no matter how hard i try to show him concern etc.. it is like never enough.. and all he does each time after he vent his anger on me was just a sorry.. which i time and again, forgive him thinking that he was sincere.. but no.. he treat me like dirt.. and i really am tired trying and if he dont wanna this friendship.. then there is nothing i can do and i really dont wanna cheapen myself to give in all the time.. it is NOT my fault that he is in a depression or he is lost in a world of his own... I have no obligation to help him find a gf and no obligation to let him vent his anger on me.. I really cherish the friendship we had, but i am too tired.. I am never good enough to him...
After yesterday, i felt like a punching bag.. why ppl vent their anger on me?
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I dun understand how ppel like her can have so many wonderful things in life...
I seriously think that tehre is sumthign wrong wif pple these days... my partner... Jan... a chirstian bitch.. no offence but.... yea... off all the things in my 3 years in poly i have nv been looked dwn upon until she came a long... "u r notof any help anyway"she told me when i asked her why didn't she ask for my help when a proje was in completed.... Wonderfully said... and i almost lost my marks for that project coz she couldn't wait for 1/2 an hour... wonderful huh?
Another bump is my manager at siem reap... a real fucker... he puts 1 server in the resturant, one at the bar and one cashier... and he expects everything to be perfectly done... all i can say is he is fuckign mad... he scolds his staff for no reason and he is not tactful in handling complains... he is by far the worst manager i have ever seen in my life! and when i told him today that i'll not be working any more.. he kicks up a fuss sayign i had to give him one week in advance... It is one week in advance! -.-||| and when he asked me why i told him that he was over workign me and payign me too little... and he was like.. is that so... anyway i'll call u about your pay... -.-||| i was like wat the fuck.... even if i dun get thsi pay... thank god i onli worked 2 days! By rigth i was suppose to work to dya.. but he suddenly took me off shift on monday.. he said he was over staff.... BULLSHIT.... his resturant has hardly any service to begin wif.. its a no wonder the whole place is falling apart.... -.-||| i really love to work at that place.. the pple there r great.. but its juz the manager.... i'm not gonna work my arse off for sum bastard... *sigh* i hope i get my pay....
And as for bryan.. he nv hears wat i have to say.. even if he does.. he dosen't say anythign about.. he juz changes the topic to his own and leaves me like tat.. wodnerful huh??
ARGHHHHHHHHHH the pple around me r selfish and crazy!
Another bump is my manager at siem reap... a real fucker... he puts 1 server in the resturant, one at the bar and one cashier... and he expects everything to be perfectly done... all i can say is he is fuckign mad... he scolds his staff for no reason and he is not tactful in handling complains... he is by far the worst manager i have ever seen in my life! and when i told him today that i'll not be working any more.. he kicks up a fuss sayign i had to give him one week in advance... It is one week in advance! -.-||| and when he asked me why i told him that he was over workign me and payign me too little... and he was like.. is that so... anyway i'll call u about your pay... -.-||| i was like wat the fuck.... even if i dun get thsi pay... thank god i onli worked 2 days! By rigth i was suppose to work to dya.. but he suddenly took me off shift on monday.. he said he was over staff.... BULLSHIT.... his resturant has hardly any service to begin wif.. its a no wonder the whole place is falling apart.... -.-||| i really love to work at that place.. the pple there r great.. but its juz the manager.... i'm not gonna work my arse off for sum bastard... *sigh* i hope i get my pay....
And as for bryan.. he nv hears wat i have to say.. even if he does.. he dosen't say anythign about.. he juz changes the topic to his own and leaves me like tat.. wodnerful huh??
ARGHHHHHHHHHH the pple around me r selfish and crazy!
Monday, October 11, 2004
*sigh* i dun really know wat to type.. but i'm hvaing my applesoda citron and getting myself runk...
There r so many things in my mind... i dunno wat i should and handle them... work is piling up and i have to even start on anything. My new job totally suck... i dun even wan to write it dwn, for i think my head would burst at the thought of the management. and then there is my bf... who hardly even knows i'm alife...
and charlie is freaking me out..... "then can i be the oen to love and play wif u?" *shivers...*
GOD!!! why can't i juz get a nice guy and settle dwn already.... *sigh*
There r so many things in my mind... i dunno wat i should and handle them... work is piling up and i have to even start on anything. My new job totally suck... i dun even wan to write it dwn, for i think my head would burst at the thought of the management. and then there is my bf... who hardly even knows i'm alife...
and charlie is freaking me out..... "then can i be the oen to love and play wif u?" *shivers...*
GOD!!! why can't i juz get a nice guy and settle dwn already.... *sigh*
Thursday, October 07, 2004
All i can say is that going out wif friends, once in while can be such a great thing.
I had my hair dyed today so i was kinda late to meet jade and jana.. but everythign went alrite in the end. They brought me to this place at ceni... sum tenpanyaki buffet resturant. its was so yummie~ Jade was the cook and everything tasted good~ the funnie thing about this bbq buffet was that we made ice cream in the same pan that we cooked our food in... i was so amazed at everything!!! And Guess Wat!!! we had erm... 12? 11? different kinds of ice cream! LOL. the thought of it was wonderful... but towards the 8th flavour... i felt a cramp coming up... talk about beign a greedy pig! GOD! i wanna go back there!!! the beef was WONDERFUL~ so were the veggies!! *drools*
Jade Da Chef
!!!!ICE CREAMS!!!!
After our wonderful lunch we went took pictures LOTS of pictures at a neo print shop.... And again~i'm so amazed!!! neo prints now have weird back grounds! LOL and we could even design our own picture!! it was so fun!!!! :X lol
after all the excitment at Ceni~ we went to HMV for jade's jeans and headed dwn to bugis to look for iris... LOL that was when i reasliaed i got a msg frm byran... sum how i know i shoudln;t even have called him back.. but i missed him... and called him.. he asked me if i wanted to go for dinner but it was too late.. so we cancelled it and pushed it to sunday.
Oh oh!! i almost forgot at Bugis... we went up to the 3rd floor for more pictures! it was so fun! there was even a sofa in oneof the booths!!!! I reallt haven't been out for a long long time! LOL
Jade, Jana and me... in our sexy bitchy notti poses *drools*
Aftr everythign we made our way to Can Cafe... everytime i step into that cafe... i'm so erm... curious about the way it is designed.... how they got teh idea the stuffs and everything... i was alreayd out of cash.. so jade and jana forked out money for my supper.. they were so sweet~ Thank you so much!!!! i really appreciate it!!!! all in all i had a great day today~thank to my 2 dear friends~^^
Jana aka Pirana
Jade aka Mama-Hen/Fish Breeder
I had my hair dyed today so i was kinda late to meet jade and jana.. but everythign went alrite in the end. They brought me to this place at ceni... sum tenpanyaki buffet resturant. its was so yummie~ Jade was the cook and everything tasted good~ the funnie thing about this bbq buffet was that we made ice cream in the same pan that we cooked our food in... i was so amazed at everything!!! And Guess Wat!!! we had erm... 12? 11? different kinds of ice cream! LOL. the thought of it was wonderful... but towards the 8th flavour... i felt a cramp coming up... talk about beign a greedy pig! GOD! i wanna go back there!!! the beef was WONDERFUL~ so were the veggies!! *drools*
Jade Da Chef
!!!!ICE CREAMS!!!!
After our wonderful lunch we went took pictures LOTS of pictures at a neo print shop.... And again~i'm so amazed!!! neo prints now have weird back grounds! LOL and we could even design our own picture!! it was so fun!!!! :X lol
after all the excitment at Ceni~ we went to HMV for jade's jeans and headed dwn to bugis to look for iris... LOL that was when i reasliaed i got a msg frm byran... sum how i know i shoudln;t even have called him back.. but i missed him... and called him.. he asked me if i wanted to go for dinner but it was too late.. so we cancelled it and pushed it to sunday.
Oh oh!! i almost forgot at Bugis... we went up to the 3rd floor for more pictures! it was so fun! there was even a sofa in oneof the booths!!!! I reallt haven't been out for a long long time! LOL
Jade, Jana and me... in our sexy bitchy notti poses *drools*
Aftr everythign we made our way to Can Cafe... everytime i step into that cafe... i'm so erm... curious about the way it is designed.... how they got teh idea the stuffs and everything... i was alreayd out of cash.. so jade and jana forked out money for my supper.. they were so sweet~ Thank you so much!!!! i really appreciate it!!!! all in all i had a great day today~thank to my 2 dear friends~^^
Jana aka Pirana
Jade aka Mama-Hen/Fish Breeder
Sunday, October 03, 2004
Surprisingly... bryan kept up to 2/3 of wat he promised me.. he picked me up frm city hall and he treated me to movie... even thou the night wasn't a well planed one... it doesn't matter i was too tired to care...
i was suppose to go home yesterday but i kind felt lz... now i have a pile of work cut out for me... *sigh* i hate myself so much at times... -.-||| Anyway... today was a rather boring day at his place... kinda regreted staying for 2 days... should had juz gone home... *sigh*... hmm... but today's and yesterday's sex was rather good... :X desperate and deprived...
i dunno... right now i'm juz confused... On sat he was rather nice and everything... he told me that he could see changes in me... he offered to pay for my drinks... but... i still know i'm not the important thing in his life... he juz needed company then.... and i also know that shwan and him r still in connect... coz of the way he acts when he gets certain calls and wel.. today... he spend most of his time on that stupid game that he plays.
i dun understadn why he wans this relationship when its sucha sad one... a sad and boring one... so lost so confused....
i was suppose to go home yesterday but i kind felt lz... now i have a pile of work cut out for me... *sigh* i hate myself so much at times... -.-||| Anyway... today was a rather boring day at his place... kinda regreted staying for 2 days... should had juz gone home... *sigh*... hmm... but today's and yesterday's sex was rather good... :X desperate and deprived...
i dunno... right now i'm juz confused... On sat he was rather nice and everything... he told me that he could see changes in me... he offered to pay for my drinks... but... i still know i'm not the important thing in his life... he juz needed company then.... and i also know that shwan and him r still in connect... coz of the way he acts when he gets certain calls and wel.. today... he spend most of his time on that stupid game that he plays.
i dun understadn why he wans this relationship when its sucha sad one... a sad and boring one... so lost so confused....
Friday, October 01, 2004
Skool, Friends...and a so called boyfriend....
Skool is juz plain stressful.. tehre r so many project but i juz dun even knwo how to start wif single one of them. one of my project is now done by my partner... i could hardly communicate wif her... much less work wif her... *sigh* i seriouslly dunno wat to do.
Then there is Bryan... AGAIN... we had a little fight over my present job... which i will start on thursdya.... but seriously i dun relaly like it... the system suck... i mean its plain crap.. if i finish at 12 i have to take my own transport home... Its fuckign 12.... tell me! how am i suppose to get a bloody bus home? anyways... he said he woudl pickme up frm city hall tmr after skool... adn treat me to a midnight movie, after that he will try to plan sumthing enjoyable... i'm so amazed and amused... but i bet its all talk and no actions again... trust me... not even 1/2 of that he says he is gonna do is real.. *pfft*
Oh yea... and i just realised... *silly me* that maybe 1/2 of wat he said last night might not be real either... -.-||| i had to hit my head on the floor 4 times b4 i actually realized that...
And yes of coz my dear friend who has been wif me all the time... i got fucked up real bad... LOL i feel so stressed.. so sad that i'm making everyoen feel so *not good* so angry wif me... they have doen wat they could to cheer me up... and make me see that everything is juz not gonna work out.. and that i'm not the onli one suffering thur all this... i really appreciate everythign... and i know some r alreayd on the verge of giving up oen me... but still i will understand.. i ahev already lost stefan becoz of thsi relationship... i wouldn't be surprised if i lost a few more.... i'm juz too ezily cheated and to soft hearted to do anything right, but hurt myself even more... *sigh*.... i seriously am lost....
Skool is juz plain stressful.. tehre r so many project but i juz dun even knwo how to start wif single one of them. one of my project is now done by my partner... i could hardly communicate wif her... much less work wif her... *sigh* i seriouslly dunno wat to do.
Then there is Bryan... AGAIN... we had a little fight over my present job... which i will start on thursdya.... but seriously i dun relaly like it... the system suck... i mean its plain crap.. if i finish at 12 i have to take my own transport home... Its fuckign 12.... tell me! how am i suppose to get a bloody bus home? anyways... he said he woudl pickme up frm city hall tmr after skool... adn treat me to a midnight movie, after that he will try to plan sumthing enjoyable... i'm so amazed and amused... but i bet its all talk and no actions again... trust me... not even 1/2 of that he says he is gonna do is real.. *pfft*
Oh yea... and i just realised... *silly me* that maybe 1/2 of wat he said last night might not be real either... -.-||| i had to hit my head on the floor 4 times b4 i actually realized that...
And yes of coz my dear friend who has been wif me all the time... i got fucked up real bad... LOL i feel so stressed.. so sad that i'm making everyoen feel so *not good* so angry wif me... they have doen wat they could to cheer me up... and make me see that everything is juz not gonna work out.. and that i'm not the onli one suffering thur all this... i really appreciate everythign... and i know some r alreayd on the verge of giving up oen me... but still i will understand.. i ahev already lost stefan becoz of thsi relationship... i wouldn't be surprised if i lost a few more.... i'm juz too ezily cheated and to soft hearted to do anything right, but hurt myself even more... *sigh*.... i seriously am lost....