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WishList 2005

1. Backpacking

2. Brazillian Waxing

3. Full Face Waxing

4. Car Licence

5. Crazy Shopping Spree

6. EarringSSssss

7. Bike Licence

8. Taste Weed

9. New Handphone

10. Makeover

11. Lose 10kg

12. New Pair of Jeans

13. SunGlasses

14. A Pair Of Shoes

15. Siberian Husky Pup

16. Ball Python
not wat i was expecting
but juz as cute^^

17. Clubbing In Malaysia

18. Slack At A Beach Resort

19. Get A Good Watch For My Mummie

20. Get A Mont Blanc Pen For Daddie

21. PlayStation 2

22. Another Pair Of Jeans

23. Earphones

*smiles*

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Friends

.:Danyael:.
.:Daryl:.
.:DreamBoi:.
.:LostBody:.
.:Ivan:.
.:Jacy:.
.:Nad:.
.:Princess:.
.:Ray:.
.:Red:.
.:Sheepie:.
.:Stacy:.
.:Veronica:.
.:Vik:.

my god...... 13 more hours.... i wanna dig a hoel and juz cry my eyes out.... >.<. for 21 year of my life... wat have benn doing? *sigh* i feel like i've juz wasted 21 years doing nth... i'm fucking freaked out by all this "age of independence" crap... *sobz* i still wanna be a kid... *sigh* even looking in the mirror now i feel sad... my young looks r gone... i look like an adult now..

Anyways... i was talking to Nad a while ago... she was trying to console and persude me that growing old isn't all that bad a thing.. in fact that it was. prob is i can't seem to see any good in it.

As i grow by day by day, year by year.. i start to see things tat i nv wanted to see... realized facts that i can't accept. Matt said sum like being 21 is a whole new experience, basically a whole new world compared to the young days. i'm still not ready.. still not willing to move on to his stag of life... i dun wanna carry the reasponsibility, i dun wanna carry the worries and burdens of an adult.

Having gotten older.. i started to realized that my grandma and parents won't be around forver.. they would have to leave me one day. i can't imagin myself wifout them... i dun wanna take care of myself... i wan them there for me always... *sigh* thinking about such things its juz making my head go crazy.

Just imagin... if i were really to get married or if sumone is juz so unlucky to have married me *poor guy*... it woudl be like in 6 years time.. give or take... about 2 years after i woudl have little monsters running all over me... >.< time is flying by too fast... and i have yet to do so many things. i wanna see the world under the wings of my parents.

i wonder if i'll ever forget that bastard and move on to my next relationship wif no hatred in my heart. last night sum chatter pissed me off, asking how's my relationship wif my bf going along... i mean wat the fuck... WAT bf... thou it was un-intentional.. i snapped slightly... memories of that god forsaken relationship is still stuck in my head... stuck in my heart... its like.. i'm so scared, even at the thought of getting attached freaks me out now. its becoz of that bastard that i've grown cold and crude... so crude that i tend to scare guys away. well its kinda of a good thing... * I think *

Right now i have everything... money i can spend, attention from friends and family, places to go, things to do... everything but one thing... -.-|| sex... i'm seriously deprived of sex that i'm dreaming of weird dreams these days... >.< Prolly that's why sumtime i feel like getting a guy... *pfft*

*sigh* a relationship... *pfft* un-nesscessary waste of time, money and effort, if u'd ask me..