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WishList 2005

1. Backpacking

2. Brazillian Waxing

3. Full Face Waxing

4. Car Licence

5. Crazy Shopping Spree

6. EarringSSssss

7. Bike Licence

8. Taste Weed

9. New Handphone

10. Makeover

11. Lose 10kg

12. New Pair of Jeans

13. SunGlasses

14. A Pair Of Shoes

15. Siberian Husky Pup

16. Ball Python
not wat i was expecting
but juz as cute^^

17. Clubbing In Malaysia

18. Slack At A Beach Resort

19. Get A Good Watch For My Mummie

20. Get A Mont Blanc Pen For Daddie

21. PlayStation 2

22. Another Pair Of Jeans

23. Earphones

*smiles*

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Friends

.:Danyael:.
.:Daryl:.
.:DreamBoi:.
.:LostBody:.
.:Ivan:.
.:Jacy:.
.:Nad:.
.:Princess:.
.:Ray:.
.:Red:.
.:Sheepie:.
.:Stacy:.
.:Veronica:.
.:Vik:.

*sigh* nv expected myself to give in so fast. not that i have ask for the relationship back again or sumthing... i miss him dearly.. but eveytime i think about him he reminds me of wat happened that day. how can i stay in a relationship like that? but yet... i'm confused...

Yesterday my sis got a harrassing call frm sum fucker named Paul Tan.... he said that he knew me and taht my "bf" is bryan and is a DJ too.. i was shocked... so i called him last night to ask about this Paul Fucker. its turned out he doesn't know anything and well... i explained the situation to him and he said he really didn't know any Paul. after that we juz hung up... he hardly even seems hurt or happy to hear me... *sigh* am i tat little to him, that i dun even coz a single emotion in him to react?

Yea... i know stubborn me.. why dun i juz look straight for a better guy, right? *shrugs* i have been asking myself that to... but in sg... the guys r hardly even
good enuff to be my dogs. Then again... its coul d me juz me... i have been attracting weird guys for the last 7 years. *sigh*

I'll be meeting my Sisters soon.. i dun think i'll have the heart to tell them anything about my relationship... this on of things has happen like so many times.. and i know they r already sick of it like so many other pple. I really wish i can forget this relationship orthat Bryan could really change... but i guess i'm asking for both of the impossible... i suddenly why realized why bryan as no interest in this relationship at all... coz these 2 weeks he has so many programs wif his friends so he doesn't wan me to interfere in his plans.. *shrugs* i bet its with shawn again anyway... i won't be surprised to find them dwn at sum cafe chilling or sumthing...

Prolly is juz my selfish nature... i'm so jealous and so sad and so angry wif bryan for not being there for me when i need him... but he is always there for his friends... is it fair? was i really nth to him? i think i have jus seen the whole picture clearly.. and it hurts...