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1. Backpacking
2. Brazillian Waxing
3. Full Face Waxing
4. Car Licence
5. Crazy Shopping Spree
6. EarringSSssss
7. Bike Licence
8. Taste Weed
9. New Handphone
10. Makeover
11. Lose 10kg
12. New Pair of Jeans
13. SunGlasses
14. A Pair Of Shoes
15. Siberian Husky Pup
16. Ball Python
not wat i was expecting
but juz as cute^^
17. Clubbing In Malaysia
18. Slack At A Beach Resort
19. Get A Good Watch For My Mummie
20. Get A Mont Blanc Pen For Daddie
21. PlayStation 2
22. Another Pair Of Jeans
23. Earphones
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1. Tall [Prolly 1.76m]
2. Good Family Background
3. Sexy body
4. Chinese
5. Drives A Nice Car
6. Rides A Nice Bike
7. Able To Afford Me
8. Owns A Nice Tattoo
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10. English Educated
11. Staying Near My Area
12. Parents Agreement [Vic Versa]
13. Kind Hearted
14. Romantic
15. Average Looking
16. Good Career
17. Gives In To Me
18. On My Frequency Of Thinking
19. Able To Click Well
20. Great In Bed
Thursday, December 02, 2004
well.. right now i'm really confused and depressed... then again who wouldn't be when u have a whole load of work (that u hardly understand)dumped on u and a relationship of a year over broken up.
Last night i had given up on my relationship... i sent him a long e-mail, smsed him that i loved him and that there was a mail waiting for him at home. Sadly to say, being the brat that i am i got pissed when i found out that he was out till 6 plus in the morning. I was pissed becoz he nv brougth me out! *sulks*
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Hey Dear dear...
I think i have decided... its better that we juz leave this relationship. I dun know if this actually hurts u or anything, but it hurts typing all this out.. not to mention the tears inmy eyes r making matters worst... haha. i have already done my best for this relationship and i really thought tat things did turn out better and that u have changed... but looks like it juz got worst.
I'm not the understanding sweet girl that u hope me to be. I need attention and sumone to be there for me when i need them. Yesterday was really one of the worst things tat every happened to me. Now everytime a bruise on my body hurts, i just think how hard i have tried to get to talk to u, how u ignored me and said u had bigger problems than me and how we fought and how u held me after i collapsed. i know i had cut u on the arm, sori for that.
today would be our 1st year and 3rd month together. after so many quiet anniversaries, i guess it wouldn't matter.
I know u would be okie and that u will be able to forget everything in a couple of days, prolly even forget me after reading this long letter. U have all the social gathering coming up, Xmas and new year is coming; and friends who r always there for u. So yea that's good.
For the 2 or 3 days we didn't talk i dreamt of u... LOL... weird dreams about your mum disliking me and about u going back to ShiShi. i can go on typing about everything that i wanted to talk to u about for the last 4 days... but i could nv seem to say it over the fone... coz i know sumtimes my topics bore u. haha
I bet your friends r luffing at me for being such a loser yesterday. but... hey wat can i say... i had a hard time letting go... Sumtimes when i'm with u, i really thought tat this will be the last relationship i will ever have... no more hearkbreaks from bad guys... no more lies... no more 2-timing jerks or jerks who planned to leech of my savings.
I could go on about how i Hate Shawn thing again... And we nv go out or stuff..... but i guess that would make things really dry and make me annoying for repeating things all over again... lucky u i grew tired already. ^^
I'm sorry but yea, Somethings are Impossible... no matter how much time and effort u give u can't change it... And Aust was really a wonderful place... Anyways, i think i'll stop typing here and well... enjoy life wif whoever u will be wif next.
Rachel (aka Dee Dee)
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Haha... mushy stuff.. i know... everyone must be thinking... how mushy and whiny can Dear Rachel be? LOL i had training in whining for 20 years, coming 21 years now... so yea.. i'm a professional!
Anyways... right now i'm juz sad... prolly its juz me but some how i know that Bryan is different from other guys... and he doesn't need a girl to survive. erm... actually not a girl like me who is superglued to anyone who takes care of her well enuff.
Everyone said that wat Bryan replied was veri sweet and that i should give him another chance. Yea.. it was sweet..
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I have read your email sorry i got to sms you cause my keyborad low batlol and just wanna say something today i actually went out with james to tell u the truth and i actuallu found out that shwan is the problem in our relationship at that time i trusted shawn so much and i can say that was my biggest mistake in my life after wat james and shwan's closes friend told me about shwan i was stunned and i just regreted about so many things and i would say i really owe you alot and i would wan to love u again it was the niggest mistake in my life for trusting shwan so much and all i can say is sumthing big is gonna happen soon to him which i and his friends gonna do something that he wouldn't forget in his life you r right about shawn and i was wrong maybe its too late to say all this now but i reall do love you alot and wat you done for me all the best dee i love you.
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wat was said is really sweet and i was erm... *shrugs* happy? i dunno i juz fel confused.. coz he doesn't sound like he wans to do anything to get his relationship back... all he does is juz say and no actions... i wan to be pampered back into this relationship not just sweet words... and secondly i dun even know if wat he said was true.. its so hard to believe. he was so attached to shawn... and how he sounds like he is gonna make his life a living hell...
i dunno wif he will change again after this.. but wat my friend said was true... all this problems really started was when shawn got into the picture... and bryan losing interest in me then and there.... but wat if its not rue?? wat if heis juz tired of the relationship.
I mean look.. he's not doing anything now but sleep.. he's not tryng to get me back to be his girl or anything.. he's just saying that he regrets... he owes me.. he loves me... but he thinks its too late to say anything now... i mean.. *sigh*.... why an't u put in more effort for the girl u love?
Should i forget everything? or should i give him another chance? *frowns* i wanna go Genting wif him.. he said he wanted to bring me to Genting next firday... my heart almost leaped out when he told me that after our quarrel erm.. 2 nights before. >.< He also said he wanted to go watch Shatter ( horror movie, i really wan to watch!! ) >.< haiz... i know i sound like sum money crazy girl....
But i really do miss him already.. i'm such a love sick fool.. i miss how i wae up in the mornings wif him beside me and how we tease each other... doing crazy things together... haha... but... sumhow i dun feel that he has given me enuff to make me really love him... and that he should juz get a girl who will appreciate him more then i do...
Anyways... i dunno i'm confused...
Last night i had given up on my relationship... i sent him a long e-mail, smsed him that i loved him and that there was a mail waiting for him at home. Sadly to say, being the brat that i am i got pissed when i found out that he was out till 6 plus in the morning. I was pissed becoz he nv brougth me out! *sulks*
Hey Dear dear...
I think i have decided... its better that we juz leave this relationship. I dun know if this actually hurts u or anything, but it hurts typing all this out.. not to mention the tears inmy eyes r making matters worst... haha. i have already done my best for this relationship and i really thought tat things did turn out better and that u have changed... but looks like it juz got worst.
I'm not the understanding sweet girl that u hope me to be. I need attention and sumone to be there for me when i need them. Yesterday was really one of the worst things tat every happened to me. Now everytime a bruise on my body hurts, i just think how hard i have tried to get to talk to u, how u ignored me and said u had bigger problems than me and how we fought and how u held me after i collapsed. i know i had cut u on the arm, sori for that.
today would be our 1st year and 3rd month together. after so many quiet anniversaries, i guess it wouldn't matter.
I know u would be okie and that u will be able to forget everything in a couple of days, prolly even forget me after reading this long letter. U have all the social gathering coming up, Xmas and new year is coming; and friends who r always there for u. So yea that's good.
For the 2 or 3 days we didn't talk i dreamt of u... LOL... weird dreams about your mum disliking me and about u going back to ShiShi. i can go on typing about everything that i wanted to talk to u about for the last 4 days... but i could nv seem to say it over the fone... coz i know sumtimes my topics bore u. haha
I bet your friends r luffing at me for being such a loser yesterday. but... hey wat can i say... i had a hard time letting go... Sumtimes when i'm with u, i really thought tat this will be the last relationship i will ever have... no more hearkbreaks from bad guys... no more lies... no more 2-timing jerks or jerks who planned to leech of my savings.
I could go on about how i Hate Shawn thing again... And we nv go out or stuff..... but i guess that would make things really dry and make me annoying for repeating things all over again... lucky u i grew tired already. ^^
I'm sorry but yea, Somethings are Impossible... no matter how much time and effort u give u can't change it... And Aust was really a wonderful place... Anyways, i think i'll stop typing here and well... enjoy life wif whoever u will be wif next.
Rachel (aka Dee Dee)
Haha... mushy stuff.. i know... everyone must be thinking... how mushy and whiny can Dear Rachel be? LOL i had training in whining for 20 years, coming 21 years now... so yea.. i'm a professional!
Anyways... right now i'm juz sad... prolly its juz me but some how i know that Bryan is different from other guys... and he doesn't need a girl to survive. erm... actually not a girl like me who is superglued to anyone who takes care of her well enuff.
Everyone said that wat Bryan replied was veri sweet and that i should give him another chance. Yea.. it was sweet..
I have read your email sorry i got to sms you cause my keyborad low batlol and just wanna say something today i actually went out with james to tell u the truth and i actuallu found out that shwan is the problem in our relationship at that time i trusted shawn so much and i can say that was my biggest mistake in my life after wat james and shwan's closes friend told me about shwan i was stunned and i just regreted about so many things and i would say i really owe you alot and i would wan to love u again it was the niggest mistake in my life for trusting shwan so much and all i can say is sumthing big is gonna happen soon to him which i and his friends gonna do something that he wouldn't forget in his life you r right about shawn and i was wrong maybe its too late to say all this now but i reall do love you alot and wat you done for me all the best dee i love you.
wat was said is really sweet and i was erm... *shrugs* happy? i dunno i juz fel confused.. coz he doesn't sound like he wans to do anything to get his relationship back... all he does is juz say and no actions... i wan to be pampered back into this relationship not just sweet words... and secondly i dun even know if wat he said was true.. its so hard to believe. he was so attached to shawn... and how he sounds like he is gonna make his life a living hell...
i dunno wif he will change again after this.. but wat my friend said was true... all this problems really started was when shawn got into the picture... and bryan losing interest in me then and there.... but wat if its not rue?? wat if heis juz tired of the relationship.
I mean look.. he's not doing anything now but sleep.. he's not tryng to get me back to be his girl or anything.. he's just saying that he regrets... he owes me.. he loves me... but he thinks its too late to say anything now... i mean.. *sigh*.... why an't u put in more effort for the girl u love?
Should i forget everything? or should i give him another chance? *frowns* i wanna go Genting wif him.. he said he wanted to bring me to Genting next firday... my heart almost leaped out when he told me that after our quarrel erm.. 2 nights before. >.< He also said he wanted to go watch Shatter ( horror movie, i really wan to watch!! ) >.< haiz... i know i sound like sum money crazy girl....
But i really do miss him already.. i'm such a love sick fool.. i miss how i wae up in the mornings wif him beside me and how we tease each other... doing crazy things together... haha... but... sumhow i dun feel that he has given me enuff to make me really love him... and that he should juz get a girl who will appreciate him more then i do...
Anyways... i dunno i'm confused...