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WishList 2005

1. Backpacking

2. Brazillian Waxing

3. Full Face Waxing

4. Car Licence

5. Crazy Shopping Spree

6. EarringSSssss

7. Bike Licence

8. Taste Weed

9. New Handphone

10. Makeover

11. Lose 10kg

12. New Pair of Jeans

13. SunGlasses

14. A Pair Of Shoes

15. Siberian Husky Pup

16. Ball Python
not wat i was expecting
but juz as cute^^

17. Clubbing In Malaysia

18. Slack At A Beach Resort

19. Get A Good Watch For My Mummie

20. Get A Mont Blanc Pen For Daddie

21. PlayStation 2

22. Another Pair Of Jeans

23. Earphones

*smiles*

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Friends

.:Danyael:.
.:Daryl:.
.:DreamBoi:.
.:LostBody:.
.:Ivan:.
.:Jacy:.
.:Nad:.
.:Princess:.
.:Ray:.
.:Red:.
.:Sheepie:.
.:Stacy:.
.:Veronica:.
.:Vik:.

he finally replied me today.... we got to talk for a short while... coz he was too tired.. he said he was busy over the last 3 days... he didn't have time to call me... *sobs* it sounds so fake... but wat can i say?

When i asked him if he wanted me to spend Xmas wif him he said he didn't know... coz he might be goign for a all guy's party... and if he were to bring me alogn it would ne weird... he nv did this to me b4.... this is the 1st time.. and he broke my heart again... and i told him i was goign crazy missing him he juz kept quiet... when i asked if he missed me... he said a little... *sobs* i really have bad karma... he told me to go enjoy myself wif my friends.... but who? everyone wans to spend xmas wif the pple they love... i'm hopelessly and madly in thsi relationship taht i'm already wasted...

Funnie thing today thou... one of my classmates asked me was i different person when i was in skool and at home? coz i'm all teary and sobby at home but in skool i seems so happy... all i could do was luff and tell her.. wat can i do cry? Skool now is a veri lonely place for me... i wan sumone who could juz hug me and tell me everything is gonna be okie after i cry... but who could? there is no one close enuff to me in skool anymore... even if they r they have their own lifes to carry on...

Everynight i cry for him... i cry knowing that everything is over already... but i'm still hanging on... i still love him that much.... but its all one-sided... i stayed wif him for over a year hoping that he would love me one day, like the way i love him... looks like i hope for too much... He doesn't even notice that i'm a life... he doesn't know how much it hurts to juz wait for him... and hear him say the things he said...

I have been blessed wif a wonderful family... blessed wif friends who would hear me whine for hours and hours... the onli thing lacking in my life is juz a guy who would love me as much as i love him... and of coz my the onli other thing i'm not blessed wif is good grades and a good project... but that's not the point now... right now... i can feel myself wasting away... bit by bit everyday... i dunno wat i can do to make me happy... i dunno wat i can do to make me move on and stop being a pest to so many pple... all i can say is.. Help me...