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WishList 2005

1. Backpacking

2. Brazillian Waxing

3. Full Face Waxing

4. Car Licence

5. Crazy Shopping Spree

6. EarringSSssss

7. Bike Licence

8. Taste Weed

9. New Handphone

10. Makeover

11. Lose 10kg

12. New Pair of Jeans

13. SunGlasses

14. A Pair Of Shoes

15. Siberian Husky Pup

16. Ball Python
not wat i was expecting
but juz as cute^^

17. Clubbing In Malaysia

18. Slack At A Beach Resort

19. Get A Good Watch For My Mummie

20. Get A Mont Blanc Pen For Daddie

21. PlayStation 2

22. Another Pair Of Jeans

23. Earphones

*smiles*

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Friends

.:Danyael:.
.:Daryl:.
.:DreamBoi:.
.:LostBody:.
.:Ivan:.
.:Jacy:.
.:Nad:.
.:Princess:.
.:Ray:.
.:Red:.
.:Sheepie:.
.:Stacy:.
.:Veronica:.
.:Vik:.

Sigh... its no big surprised but i'm single again... bryan threw me away coz i'm not the perfect girl. i am so sad... LOL but heck... its for the better... he keeps saying that i dun give him enuff... i really wonder wat he has given me. All he does is keep track of were i am and quarrel wif me all the time. he wans me to do more... but wat am i working so hard for? he doesn't love me and he will nv love me. *sobz*

He nv gave me a gift which is frm the heart everythinf that he ever gave was by force... our anniversary present he didn't even border to even give me sumthing small.. he has money but he doesn't even wan to spend it on me... other guys treat their girls to movie, dinner and give them sweet things... but wat do i get? nth... everything is frm my pockets and everything is on my own. i go home alone, i go out alone. and he says he does things for me.

I get so jealous when i see couple on the streets having fun and holding flowers... I'm so envious even when i follow my friends to hunt for that perfect gift for their special sumone... everytime i hunt for a gift for Bryan, crack my head on wat to get him... i know that he wouldn't do the same for me... i thought it would be alrite... but i think i grew tired already. i wan more... i wan sumthing i can remember.... my 1st year anniversary was so horrible like the otehr 2 1st year anniversaries i had... one was in jail... the other didn't even border and bryan... he didn't border either... wat's wif the guys i fall for?

why do i get treated like shit all the time...am i really that fat, ugly and usless that everytime a guy juz treats me like tat? *wallows in self-pity* *sigh* when am i going to get the right guy? i'm 20 and i'm still having these minor relationships that tears me apart... bryan nv loved me... but i have always did... no matter how much i curse and swear at him... i really did love him alot... but he nv had a place for me in his heart.

Why can't i juz give up and forget him? it would make our lives so much happier and easier if he juz forgot each other.