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And I really do mean
ALOT
WishList 2005
1. Backpacking
2. Brazillian Waxing
3. Full Face Waxing
4. Car Licence
5. Crazy Shopping Spree
6. EarringSSssss
7. Bike Licence
8. Taste Weed
9. New Handphone
10. Makeover
11. Lose 10kg
12. New Pair of Jeans
13. SunGlasses
14. A Pair Of Shoes
15. Siberian Husky Pup
16. Ball Python
not wat i was expecting
but juz as cute^^
17. Clubbing In Malaysia
18. Slack At A Beach Resort
19. Get A Good Watch For My Mummie
20. Get A Mont Blanc Pen For Daddie
21. PlayStation 2
22. Another Pair Of Jeans
23. Earphones
*smiles*
Archives
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.:.December 2005.:.
Friends
.:Daryl:.
.:DreamBoi:.
.:LostBody:.
.:Ivan:.
.:Jacy:.
.:Nad:.
.:Princess:.
.:Ray:.
.:Red:.
.:Sheepie:.
.:Stacy:.
.:Veronica:.
.:Vik:.
Ideal Guy/Dream Guy
1. Tall [Prolly 1.76m]
2. Good Family Background
3. Sexy body
4. Chinese
5. Drives A Nice Car
6. Rides A Nice Bike
7. Able To Afford Me
8. Owns A Nice Tattoo
9. Smart/Street Wise
10. English Educated
11. Staying Near My Area
12. Parents Agreement [Vic Versa]
13. Kind Hearted
14. Romantic
15. Average Looking
16. Good Career
17. Gives In To Me
18. On My Frequency Of Thinking
19. Able To Click Well
20. Great In Bed
Sunday, August 29, 2004
*Sigh* why was i so sad when i aleady expected him to not keep his promises? *sigh* Friday he was suppose to pick me up after skool but he slept thur the whoel and still scolded me when i kept telling him its was his fault. i was so sad~ after he said he wanted to make up for em and meet me somewhere. So i stupidly waited for him for 2 hours at outram mrt... why the hell did i even boreder... i'm such a weakling. after that we everything was okie.
The next day we had our bbq. onli Him, Felix and me.. LOL the location of the pit was horrible it was the veri last pit of East Coast park. I felt really guilty and bad when he and his mum said that pasir ris was a much better place... And he didn't seem veri enusiatic about the bbq either. But after we settled everythin down and started cooking, everythign seemed fine.. infact, i rather enjoyed myself there. we had winf, hotdogs, crabmeat, bee hoon and marshmellows; a couple of beers and apple zapples. hehe. Last night was also the 1st time i saw "moonlight shadows". lol i was with bryan by the beach smoking. Btw he has been nice enuff to share his ciggies wif me for the last 2 days he has been sharing his ciggies wif me. i guess i blew my allowence on the present. Which i dun even know if its worth its.. well anyway the BBQ was great until he went to toilet and my itchy hands checked his whole hp whhen Jacob message him back... obviously, he is still in contact wif shawn.... and upon seeing that it practically spoiled my whole mood.
Anyway we left the pits at about 3am and waited for cabby. but.. *sigh* wif my mood spoiled and my whole body weak frm lack of sleep... i wasn't a veri nice person to talk to. so we sat there for 20min odd waiting for a cab. the place was so.. erm.. deserted... it looks like sumthing was haunting that strecht of road... in the end Bryan called for a cabby at citycab's hotline. And the cab was late for about 5min... ZZzzzZZZ i was really starting to feel dead.
When we got home... we cleaned up a couple of stuff and he told me that he wanted to help his brother for a while in FWO which trubed out to be a couple of hours. i was in his brotehr's room wif him for, god knows how long.. and he told me it was onli 15min... -.-||| i was truely annoyed with his "awhile", "while la" things.. his a whiel is always 2hours.... and i woudln't be surprised if he was calling shawn last night either... like he did the night b4. he promised me and told me he wasn't contacting him anymore... wat a lie... obviously he was still going out wif that 2 head-snake and still talkign to him too...
*sigh* trying to make time for himw as obviousl a waste of my efforts... after the last 2 nights... i could he wat was important to him and wat was not... he has changed a little he is nicer to me when i flare up(at times)... at least eh was willing to hold his BBQ and share wat he has wif me... but i still dun understand why does he wan this relationship... i am not important to him.. if i was he woudln't be making me sad constantly... he woudln't had hit me back then, he wouldn't had said the things he did... *sigh*last 2 nights.. he spent his time playing his stupid game FWO and talking to that shawn... am i really juz anotehr sex toy to him?
well... anyways... i know he already has found a perfect girl... his ex girl shi shi... we had a short talk about it on the beach... he was tellign e about sumthing she did for him when they were together... to me they were made for each other... she was a prefect girl to him... so why did he leave her? the day will come when thsi relationship will end, and i know i wouldn't mean a thing to him. *sigh*
Maybe this tuedays i'll tell him about wat i feel when i give him his present for our 1st year anniversary... at least if thing r gonna end.. it would be easier... i woudl be bz studyign for my exams and he woudl be too bz in camp.. prolly when he gets out he can contact he beloved shawn and eliza and tell them all about everything, i woudln't be surprised if they all agree that i was a fucked up girl and it was for the best that everything ended.... *sigh* why did i love sumone who doesn't even notices that i'm a life?
The next day we had our bbq. onli Him, Felix and me.. LOL the location of the pit was horrible it was the veri last pit of East Coast park. I felt really guilty and bad when he and his mum said that pasir ris was a much better place... And he didn't seem veri enusiatic about the bbq either. But after we settled everythin down and started cooking, everythign seemed fine.. infact, i rather enjoyed myself there. we had winf, hotdogs, crabmeat, bee hoon and marshmellows; a couple of beers and apple zapples. hehe. Last night was also the 1st time i saw "moonlight shadows". lol i was with bryan by the beach smoking. Btw he has been nice enuff to share his ciggies wif me for the last 2 days he has been sharing his ciggies wif me. i guess i blew my allowence on the present. Which i dun even know if its worth its.. well anyway the BBQ was great until he went to toilet and my itchy hands checked his whole hp whhen Jacob message him back... obviously, he is still in contact wif shawn.... and upon seeing that it practically spoiled my whole mood.
Anyway we left the pits at about 3am and waited for cabby. but.. *sigh* wif my mood spoiled and my whole body weak frm lack of sleep... i wasn't a veri nice person to talk to. so we sat there for 20min odd waiting for a cab. the place was so.. erm.. deserted... it looks like sumthing was haunting that strecht of road... in the end Bryan called for a cabby at citycab's hotline. And the cab was late for about 5min... ZZzzzZZZ i was really starting to feel dead.
When we got home... we cleaned up a couple of stuff and he told me that he wanted to help his brother for a while in FWO which trubed out to be a couple of hours. i was in his brotehr's room wif him for, god knows how long.. and he told me it was onli 15min... -.-||| i was truely annoyed with his "awhile", "while la" things.. his a whiel is always 2hours.... and i woudln't be surprised if he was calling shawn last night either... like he did the night b4. he promised me and told me he wasn't contacting him anymore... wat a lie... obviously he was still going out wif that 2 head-snake and still talkign to him too...
*sigh* trying to make time for himw as obviousl a waste of my efforts... after the last 2 nights... i could he wat was important to him and wat was not... he has changed a little he is nicer to me when i flare up(at times)... at least eh was willing to hold his BBQ and share wat he has wif me... but i still dun understand why does he wan this relationship... i am not important to him.. if i was he woudln't be making me sad constantly... he woudln't had hit me back then, he wouldn't had said the things he did... *sigh*last 2 nights.. he spent his time playing his stupid game FWO and talking to that shawn... am i really juz anotehr sex toy to him?
well... anyways... i know he already has found a perfect girl... his ex girl shi shi... we had a short talk about it on the beach... he was tellign e about sumthing she did for him when they were together... to me they were made for each other... she was a prefect girl to him... so why did he leave her? the day will come when thsi relationship will end, and i know i wouldn't mean a thing to him. *sigh*
Maybe this tuedays i'll tell him about wat i feel when i give him his present for our 1st year anniversary... at least if thing r gonna end.. it would be easier... i woudl be bz studyign for my exams and he woudl be too bz in camp.. prolly when he gets out he can contact he beloved shawn and eliza and tell them all about everything, i woudln't be surprised if they all agree that i was a fucked up girl and it was for the best that everything ended.... *sigh* why did i love sumone who doesn't even notices that i'm a life?
God, Please Help Me