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WishList 2005
1. Backpacking
2. Brazillian Waxing
3. Full Face Waxing
4. Car Licence
5. Crazy Shopping Spree
6. EarringSSssss
7. Bike Licence
8. Taste Weed
9. New Handphone
10. Makeover
11. Lose 10kg
12. New Pair of Jeans
13. SunGlasses
14. A Pair Of Shoes
15. Siberian Husky Pup
16. Ball Python
not wat i was expecting
but juz as cute^^
17. Clubbing In Malaysia
18. Slack At A Beach Resort
19. Get A Good Watch For My Mummie
20. Get A Mont Blanc Pen For Daddie
21. PlayStation 2
22. Another Pair Of Jeans
23. Earphones
*smiles*
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Friends
.:Daryl:.
.:DreamBoi:.
.:LostBody:.
.:Ivan:.
.:Jacy:.
.:Nad:.
.:Princess:.
.:Ray:.
.:Red:.
.:Sheepie:.
.:Stacy:.
.:Veronica:.
.:Vik:.
Ideal Guy/Dream Guy
1. Tall [Prolly 1.76m]
2. Good Family Background
3. Sexy body
4. Chinese
5. Drives A Nice Car
6. Rides A Nice Bike
7. Able To Afford Me
8. Owns A Nice Tattoo
9. Smart/Street Wise
10. English Educated
11. Staying Near My Area
12. Parents Agreement [Vic Versa]
13. Kind Hearted
14. Romantic
15. Average Looking
16. Good Career
17. Gives In To Me
18. On My Frequency Of Thinking
19. Able To Click Well
20. Great In Bed
Monday, August 16, 2004
My God!!! I got a total shock of my life yesterday... *sobz* Bryan has been two timing me all this while! its was no wonder he left me 3 weeks ago. i was seriously so heart-broken and engulfed by jealousy last night. *cries*
4am in the morning last night and i still couldn't sleep... so i decided to come onlien to check out a couple of things, guess wat i saw on his MSN pic! Doll's DJ picture... I mean WTF! even as his girlfriend he wouldn't even put a picture of us there, much less mine. *cries* i thought Bryan was onli treating me bad and was a horrible boyfriend, but i nv thought that he would 2-time me! It was really a heart-breaking moment... ever since we broke up 3 weeks ago, he still tells me, he still loves me; he knows that even thou i said i hated him for the things he did, i still loved him. its turned out to me all lies again... *sigh* i totally suck at thsi whole relationship thing. *frowns* i really did thought he still had feelings for me somewhere in there... but obviously... being the fool tat i am... he doesn't...
After looking at his new girls's picture, i was gone... totally juz gone... There was no way i could be better then her. Doll's DJ is pretty, has a nice body, she's 1/2 Japanese, she's rich, she's a DJ: like him and wat's more they have been sweethearts for the last 2 years. In what or which way could i have won him over... *sobz* None... Absolutely none... i have been used and play for... *sigh*
We had a quarrel; by him saying and insisting that she is onli a sis to him. For-goodness-sake! Which edert would put his sis's pic on his MSN, unless he was hinting sumthign to her! Now at least i know where he has been for the last 3 weeks, the reason why he left me and why he even steps into orchard now. *sigh* Fuck... çoem to think about it.. he wasn't even tryign to clear things out.. all he did was keep scolding me and and tried pushing everything to me my fault, when it was clearly his! I shouldn't even had done the things tat i did when i was wif him! I had wasted all my effort going to his house everytime we have a fight in our relationship. He has been a bloody waste of my time and effort... and he says he tries his best... BULLSHIT. He doesn't even border! i guess he should be fucking her brains out now anyway. *sigh* the guys i choose...
Anyways... as much as i go on ranting and cursing him... what use woudl it be right? *smirks* he will always be the heartless, cheating, lying bastard that he is. And he would never love me, no matter how much i say and show. Cause to him... i'm the ugliest and worst girlfriend he had ever have, he even regerts that he had ever met me.*sobz* Everytime he have a fight, he would tell me how pretty his ex-girlfriends are, how they always wait upon him like god's-gift to the world; compared to how i treat him, he says that i could be considered the worst. *tears* such wonderful words... i wish my heart was made of stone... even this stone will crack upon hearing this...
*sigh* i really dunno what else to say... i guess i really juz metthe wrong person at the right time... I have always treasured this relationship due to the fact that everything started so perfectly romantic and so wonderfully sweet... everything was juz perfect. I truly didn't love him.*sobz*
But hey... atleast things are settled now. i know the real truth. I juz have to learn how to accept the facts and move on. :) Its time to wake up...
4am in the morning last night and i still couldn't sleep... so i decided to come onlien to check out a couple of things, guess wat i saw on his MSN pic! Doll's DJ picture... I mean WTF! even as his girlfriend he wouldn't even put a picture of us there, much less mine. *cries* i thought Bryan was onli treating me bad and was a horrible boyfriend, but i nv thought that he would 2-time me! It was really a heart-breaking moment... ever since we broke up 3 weeks ago, he still tells me, he still loves me; he knows that even thou i said i hated him for the things he did, i still loved him. its turned out to me all lies again... *sigh* i totally suck at thsi whole relationship thing. *frowns* i really did thought he still had feelings for me somewhere in there... but obviously... being the fool tat i am... he doesn't...
After looking at his new girls's picture, i was gone... totally juz gone... There was no way i could be better then her. Doll's DJ is pretty, has a nice body, she's 1/2 Japanese, she's rich, she's a DJ: like him and wat's more they have been sweethearts for the last 2 years. In what or which way could i have won him over... *sobz* None... Absolutely none... i have been used and play for... *sigh*
We had a quarrel; by him saying and insisting that she is onli a sis to him. For-goodness-sake! Which edert would put his sis's pic on his MSN, unless he was hinting sumthign to her! Now at least i know where he has been for the last 3 weeks, the reason why he left me and why he even steps into orchard now. *sigh* Fuck... çoem to think about it.. he wasn't even tryign to clear things out.. all he did was keep scolding me and and tried pushing everything to me my fault, when it was clearly his! I shouldn't even had done the things tat i did when i was wif him! I had wasted all my effort going to his house everytime we have a fight in our relationship. He has been a bloody waste of my time and effort... and he says he tries his best... BULLSHIT. He doesn't even border! i guess he should be fucking her brains out now anyway. *sigh* the guys i choose...
Anyways... as much as i go on ranting and cursing him... what use woudl it be right? *smirks* he will always be the heartless, cheating, lying bastard that he is. And he would never love me, no matter how much i say and show. Cause to him... i'm the ugliest and worst girlfriend he had ever have, he even regerts that he had ever met me.*sobz* Everytime he have a fight, he would tell me how pretty his ex-girlfriends are, how they always wait upon him like god's-gift to the world; compared to how i treat him, he says that i could be considered the worst. *tears* such wonderful words... i wish my heart was made of stone... even this stone will crack upon hearing this...
*sigh* i really dunno what else to say... i guess i really juz metthe wrong person at the right time... I have always treasured this relationship due to the fact that everything started so perfectly romantic and so wonderfully sweet... everything was juz perfect. I truly didn't love him.*sobz*
But hey... atleast things are settled now. i know the real truth. I juz have to learn how to accept the facts and move on. :) Its time to wake up...